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Bin Too Full, But It’s My Fault

2020.10.29 23:10 haziamusic Bin Too Full, But It’s My Fault

We bought a new tumble dryer last week, since the old one started kicking off a bit of smoke (it’s ancient, it was just a matter of time). So, ended up putting some of the polystyrene packing material from the new dryer in the black bin. I was trying to play it smart and leave enough space for the rest of our rubbish for that week, so I only put in about half of the polystyrene. Got my dates mixed up though and the black bin was a full two weeks away from collection. So, we’ve had an otherwise normal week of producing rubbish and now we’re in a vaguely tense period where the black bin is absolutely full to the brim with the best part of one week left before it can be collected. And I can only really hope that the inside nappy bin and the kitchen bin won’t need emptying before Tuesday. I think we might just get away with it, but I don’t know for sure. And there’s still some polystyrene left in the garage that I’ll have to figure something out for. It’ll be fine, probably.
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2020.10.28 19:41 RoadsterTracker Thoughts on the last US Presidential Debate, 2020

my thoughts on the debate. This one went WAY better than the last Presidential debate for sure. Good questions, good moderation, and generally speaking this was much more pleasant to watch!
Both Biden and Trump had many instances of exaggeration or downplaying the other that simply were not true. Biden says Trump hasn't done anything about COVID-19 and has no plan, which isn't true, although he was quite correct that Trump could be leading a better example. It was pretty clear that Trump is actually up to date on everything, the status of the vaccines, what causes complications, etc. If only he wasn't discouraging people from wearing masks, he might even be doing alright. And I really hate calling it the "Chinese virus", might as well call the "Spanish Flu" The "Kansas Flu", because that's where it actually originated.
Biden did a good job of defending the Xenophobic comment with respect to Trump closing the border with China.
Trump's claim of doing more for Black America than any President with the possible exception of Abraham Lincoln is crazy. Same with the "Least Racist" comment. That being said, he really has done much more than he is given credit for. Another time where if you ignore what Trump says and look at what he did, things would be much better.
I don't think Biden did a great job of deflecting the Russian/ Chinese/ Ukraine allegations. I'm convinced that Joe Biden did nothing wrong, but his son almost certainly took advantage of his father's name.
Biden did get a pretty good win when Trump kept attacking policies put forward by Biden's rivals, and Trump stated pretty clearly I won, and those aren't my policies. A quick comment about the "500 children" with lost parents. I've listened to the bit several times, and I'm quite sure Trump said "Ho Ahead", not "Good" in reference to that. It's clear he didn't want to talk more about it, but that seems like a reasonable response. But Biden pretty clearly won that point pretty hard. Honestly, Trump's ignorance about the whole thing is pretty scary, to say the least.
Trump's points about Biden not getting much done as a VP for 8 years are somewhat well founded. The biggest criticism I have of the Obama administration is there wasn't really much that he did as President, aside from pushing the ACA ("Obama care") and the killing of Osama Bin Laden.
Honestly, I think Trump slightly won the debate, although Biden did have some pretty good points as well. Biden won on race, immigration, the environment, health care. Corruption, well, I think Trump did win that one. Foreign policy and COVID-19 was one where both had some pretty good things to say. Of course, Trump had to have a big win to have a chance at this point in time, so...
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2020.10.28 16:51 TastyBananaPeppers Last chance to get a PAID or Maybe FREE Promo Code for Special Weekend Event on November 7th

Last chance to get a PAID or Maybe FREE Promo Code for Special Weekend Event on November 7th
If you missed the Mexico Paid Promo Code, there are two other Promo Code you get for free or pay anywhere from $25 to $50 USD.
What is the difference between the 7-Eleven Mexico, Verizon, and Grubhub?
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or
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Grubhub's Pokemon Go Special Weekend Event:
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To Redeem this Promo Code:
Use https://rewards.nianticlabs.com/pokemongo/signin
or
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  4. Paste in your Promo code.
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2020.10.28 03:31 DangerDaskov Guess this really is the end and I need to accept the truth

I just want to start off by saying that I've never been the best at moving on or accepting a rejection and I've even found myself struggling with negativity that others may show towards me especially from another person who I have strong feelings for because I rather show more love towards someone and somehow expect that same amount back. Aswell, I tend to look at the minor things and make a big deal out of them sorta like them doing this little thing shows that they like me or something along the lines. Besides that I want to vent this all out regardless but im not sure if im writing this correctly or will it feel like im just dragging the story on so I'm sorry i ahead of time if this all doesnt sounds grammatical correct or structural, im writing this as I go.
To say I liked her would be an understatement like every girl I had liked before I loved her on first sight and I truly wanted to belive things would work out. The first time I saw her was on my second Saturday night working at my new job. From the start we never talked to each other just awkwardly looked at each other once in a while. My work to say the least was hellish moving boxes into delivery trucks that would leave early in the morning is easier said than done throughout my time there I got better at the job but felt stressful and had fits of anger from how tedious the work amount was for a single person yet the thought of seeing her again at the end of my work week pushed me forward to forget about all stress I felt just cause it would somehow be all worth it. I should mention that I first learned of her name through seeing it on her id, Anna, not her real name as I'm trying to protect her privacy. It would be a month of awkwardly waving at each other at the start if our shifts, to saying goodbyes at the end of each shift, to me lending her a hand when it seem she got "drowned" with work, to just small talks and times we sorta goofed around that I eventually got the courage to ask for her name and get to know her. That first actual conversation warmed my heart because I really felt I would get to know her even with the small amount of time we had to see each other. After that night every other Saturday we saw each other became a bit less awkward yet I was always worried I was pushing myself to much onto her and worried she might be put off if I bothered her too much or she might get weirded out by me. But even then I felt happy non the least and belived that so long as she was happy so could I be. Around two months in of talking to each other I find out about her plans for college and other personal stuff about her. Yet the one thing that always bothered me was that she sometimes mentioned how stress she got and how she normally would avoid taking breaks to keep on working but mainly how she never took the time to bring lunch to work , all I could do was sorta stare knowing deep down I felt the same way sometimes. That night that she mentioned that I decided I wanted to share some of my lunch with her and felt glad I did brcause later on she thanked me and found the blueberry flavored cookies I gave her where actually pretty good despite her initially being put off by the though of eating cookies. I'm not sure if that was the right thing to do or if that classifies me as a "simp" but i wanna belive i showed her that in a sense i cared for her yet im worried what others might think of me for doing that.The next Saturday I had planned to ask for the phone number and SC hoping to be able to talk to her more after work. Toward the of our shift she was gonna be leaving early for a personal reason so I asked her if we could talk before she left and as she came up to me she jokenly asked if I was daydreaming I sorta avoided the question and went ahead with asking for her number I told her " hey I think you're a pretty cool person and I would like to get to know you more outside of work" she then told me she didn't give out her phone number to just anyone and that she rarely used social media. Up to that point in my life I had heard that same phrase from different girls to know that they aren't interest in me, so I smiled and told her its ok I wish you luck in your trip. As she walked away I sorta faded into the abyss that I royally screwed up everything. The next Saturday we saw each other I avoided bringing up the whole phone thing till the end where I told her I was sorry to bring that up in the first place and that I wasnt trying to make thing awkward between us. She said it was OK and that she just didn't give out her number to people and she rarely used SM. Again I left that day feeling hopeless. A couple of Saturdays went by I began to feel like I was detaching myself from her. I would avoid her gaze and focus on working as I didn't want to make things worst that what they are already. Eventually one Saturday came where she wasn't there anymore after which I felt like somehow this was my doing. I would only later find out she got promoted to a supervisor but yet I couldn't stop feeling hopeless that she was gone and her last day working next to me all I did was avoid her and painfully told myself she could careless if I talked to her or not. Fast forward about a month I had just put in my two week leave as I had recently got a new career opportunity open up to me and was excited that I'll be leaving soon. At this point I was slowly moving on yet being hopeful I would see Anna again before I would have to leave, somehow my dream came true. On my second to last week I was surprised when I saw her right across some of my trucks I work with during the weekdays. I was trying hard not to look over when I saw her because I felt those feelings I had for her flood back into my mind. I began to pray that somehow on my last week I could talk to her just one last time and I'll be OK with how things would end up between us. Come my last week of work I was suprised when she was placed on Tuesday night in the same area I worked just a couple of trucks over helping out a new hire learn to load a truck. At first I avoided trying to look over at her direction and I even tried to spent as much time away from the open where she could see me. At some point she ended up leaving im not sure when but I was frantically looking around for her hoping to see her pop out of some direction. This next part im not sure if she did this intentionally or was on accident but as I was loading a package into one of my trucks she came in from the front of my truck and in there sorta froze at the sight of seeing her right in front of me. I was happy she was here the prayer came true and as she smiled and asked me how I was doing all I could do was smile back and telling her good and that it had been a while. Although she had to be with the new hire helping him out she sorta stayed there with me followed me as I went and grabbed new packages and we sorta laughed at how somehow she would end up becoming one of those grumpy supervisors one day yelling at the new hires. I know this part sounds stupid but to me I wouldn't mind being anywhere but right there besides her and more than I was glad to share a moment like this with her. I told her about how with these trucks I'm basically dealing with the stressful situation of loading over a thousand boxes, 4 days out of the week and how stressful it was becoming. She mentioned that even as a supervisor her job still made her stressful that if a new worker didn't do their job right she didn't want to push them to do something they didn't want to or weren't capable of but she still had her job to someway or another. When she said to me I wanted to tell her that no matter how stressful she gets there's always a person that thinks she's the best at what she does and no matter what he liked her for who she is. Yet I didn't and instead told her how I wasnt worried to much as I was leaving soon she asked when I said this coming Saturday the 24th she replied with a slight oh and asked what exactly I was going to do. I told her "im leaving for the air force soon" she sorta got a bit upset and looked away and asked me if thats what I really wanted to do, I said of course its been my dream since I was little I then told her how I was being set up to becoming a male nurse in the future which wasn't my plan and I hope its not karma for always talking down on those in my family who are nurses, she jokenly told me "I could see you as a male nurse someday" I just laughed it up and told her "no no not in a million years". We were sorta interupted by an angry manager standing around a couple of trucks down looking at us so she ended up leaving to go back to her work and we werent able to talk to each other for the rest of the night. I realized that while i was talking to her I hadn't been loading up packages and I had gotten backed up but I could careless cause i was glad to have gotten that chance to talked to her eitherway. At some point I was looking down at the bins where my packages were coming down from and I could see that someone was organizing them based on which truck they went into. I honestly was glad to see that it was Anna going into my bins while I wasnt looking and fixing them up. It helped me catch up with my work load and it reminded me of how back when we worked next to each other i would wait till she wasnt looking so i could arrange her packages and help her out. To say the least I never felt happier to see her again and moreover to see how she was helping me despite knowing that she didn't need to. Towards the end of my shift I meet up with her again and off the bat I could tell how tired she looked. To sum up the conversation we talked about how she felt stressful and how she was trying to cope with it. I sorta made a bs response saying I take a step back from work to destress yet im always on top of my work and I never take breaks or eat anything cause I don't want to fall behind. She told me I shouldnt do that but all I could think was "seeing you makes me feel less stressful and I need to work hard to be able to feel like I have a chance to ever seeing you again". After that talk we split off and she said to me "Goodbye Joel", it was honestly the first time I had ever heard her say my name and I honestly though she had forgotten and yes im overlooking something something small. Next night she wasn't there I got worried that maybe that truly was the last time I would get to see her yet I was hoping that from what she told me she still worked on Saturday I would go over to where she worked and tak to her but I couldn't shake off the feeling of. I didn't want to wait till then. I eventually ask a buddy of mine who was a supervisor about where she would be at he eventually caught on that I liked her and decided to help me he even offered me her phone number but I didn't feel like taking it just cause how would I explain to her how I got her number. Anyways I soon figured that I wanted to make my last day the day I would confess to her. Right after a busy day on Thursday I went out bought a card and some boxes of chocolate for her. I wasn't sure what I wanted to write in the letter but for sure I wanted to explain to her how I felt and most importantly how even after I leave my job I still wanna try and get to see her. Come Saturday night I felt confident that no matter what I needed to make this happen or I will never get a chance to make things right between us. So what actually ended up happening was I found myself screwed over, close to 1500 packages that needed to be loaded rather than my usual 800 packages. In all honesty as much I hated seeing this work load I told myself that it won't matter today is the last day ill have to load a truck full of packages. But regardless by the time it was 7:00 a.m I found myself backup with a lot of workload and was worried that by the time I wanted to leave to go see Anna, which would have been around 8:00 or 8:30, I wouldn't even be fully done. It was at that moment I sorta took a step back and look around at the work I still had left to do that I noticed someone coming up behind me. It was only when I hear the word "hey" from a voice I recognized by heart that I turned around and saw Anna standing besides me. She looked happy and said to me "came to see you since this was your last day". I told her no dont give me that positivity to which she answered back with a "come on its your last day you got this" I told her in return "no no save that happy talk till when I leave then I'll feel relieved to be out of here". When she saw how backed up I was all she could say was sorry that they screwed you over I didn't say much other than I wanted to get to talk to her more and I was hoping to see if around 9ish would work for her since around then I'll be done for sure with work as she left some guys came over and asked me if she was my girl I embarrassedly told them no that's she was just a friend hoping she didn't hear any of that. Come 8:00 I was finally done and well just about ready to make my move. I first stopped by another coworker who had also helped me out a lot during my time there and she was sorta like a parent figure at work so I wanted to give her a gift for all her help. As we were talking she pointed out that Anna was right behind me and looking my direction while talking to someone else. I can only assume she wanted to talk to me but wanted to wait for me to finish. Anyways my coworker wished me luck but with my future career and with Anna by essentially reminding me I had this last chance to tell her how I felt to not screw it up. Went over to anna and after that I asked her how come she came over she sorta answered by telling me how she hadn't told anyone especially her boss over at the area she worked at she was coming to see me l. I sorta brushed it aside and we walked around the area I worked sorta talking about well everything that had happened recently and future plans we both had. At some point we got to this quiet area where I gave her the letter I had wrote to her plus the two box of chocolates she first asked me if she could open the letter and I told her she can and then out of no where she got a phone call she and I could see from her screen it was one of her friends she quickly went around the corner and I could hear her say "im in the middle of something ill call you later" I sorta chuckled when I heard that. When I showed her the box of chocaltes she sorta took a step back and began saying me no no its fine i then asked her "do you want the small box or the big box" when she didn't answer i gave her both of them all she said to me jokenly was "you're just trying to get me sugar high". After that i told her i would walk her down back over to her work area since because of me she had been gone a while then when we reach the end her boss was there waiting for her i feel bad even now cause i didn't stand up for her. After that happened we began walking back up the way we came and we came by the same area we were at before were I began telling her how I felt in that the moments where I truly enjoyed being here was the days I worked next to her and how she was my motivation to keep going. I did asked her "you know where I'm going with this right?" She turned and I could see her smile and I told her "I've had a crush on you for a while and I wasnt sure when to tell you or how to since I always worried if I talked to you I might annoy or wierd you out as well I wasnt sure if you were already dating someone so I didn't know if I was making the right choice. Also I know you want to focus or your classes and work" she turned towards me and told me "you dont have to worry about that and I was never annoyed by you but im not really looking to get into that kind of stuff cause I want to focus on my classes" I responded by telling her "thats ok and trust me I respect that and I will always wish you the best of luck with your studies its just the one thing I really wish is that we can keep in contact". When I said that she sorta hesitate at first but then told me how she hadn't deactivated her SC so she was willing to write down my SC and phone number on her phone. I was so happy with just that at that moment somehow I felt I would get to talk to her more outside of work I even jokenly told her I'll stay up at the same she's working so she has someone to tell about how shitty work has been to which she jokenly told me "im not gonna bring you to work!". With that I was ready to leave and start a long but happy walk home. This next part i can only describe it as what truly made her stand apart from all the other girls I've ever meet in my life and why even 3 days later I still can't get over her. She turned towards me and she began to get close to me. As she did she raised her arms and wanted to wrap them around me but I wasnt sure what to do so I bagan to back away but with a smile on a face she told me "its ok, its alright, you dont need to worry about it" I let her put her arms around me and hug me and I did the same. Feeling her like that made me feel numb I wasnt sure if I was hugging her too long or if I needed to pull away. At that moment I didn't just like her I sorts loved her because in thr cases where I confessed my feelings for a girl I never had received a hug from one and it felt nice like someone had given me the happiest I've always wanted and I wanted to feel this way forever. We pulled away and I then jokenly asked if maybe we were going for the hover over the shoulder hug. She laught but didn't say much after that I could only say goodbye to her and never asked her on a date. As I watched her walk away part of me didn't want to leave her alone but then the other side knew what else can I do. As I walked home that feeling of love and happiness flooded all over my mind. God I could stop thinking about her. But it was when I got home and I sat down that I began to cry for her. I missed her so damn much she gave me the happiness I've always from someone else and now she's no longer her. There's nothing I can do but hope she texts me. The last 3 days I've been holding out to hope and even today on my birthday which I never told her it was today I somehow hoped she would text me. I cant help it anymore I regret leaving my job and I honestly feel like forgetting about my future just so I can see her again. Worst of all today is my birthaday and I sit here on listening to sad music feeling like my life has come to an end. I know I'm supposed to be feeling happy this is my day yet i can't because she isn't here, the one person I truly cared isn't here and she would have honestly made me happier no matter what day of the year it was.. Would she ever text me before my leave date on November 10th or will I just be another guy that came and went? I pray not. I guess now I just need the help from reddit to move on and figure out what can I do now I don't wanna make any rash decisions yet I can't stop thinking about her. Well if you've made it this far thank you for taking the time you are a Saint for reading my ramble. I don't know right now if ill ever truly move on or if she was my last chance at getting with someone else and now I might just get use to the idea of being lonely. Thank you again and may God bless you all.
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2020.10.27 10:05 Glowing_up Feel like my [29f] relationship with [27m] just hurts me.

Feel like my [29f] relationship with partner [27m] is hurting me.
We live in a house in his name, I paid toward deposit (this was not listed as my contribution in paper) and gave him £150 a few months ago toward it, in cash. I buy food, everything for our son and pay his nursery. He has bought food a couple of times cause our son has a cough so we aren’t going out just cause I cba with people reacting to it it’s not COVID though.
My partner recently took on a second job despite already being comfortable financially. He says it’s because he doesn’t want to play pc as much (he would play from getting home until bed and on days off too).
Then he backtracked and said it was bc I make it unpleasant at home for him. It’s always messy. I mean yea it’s things like dishes aren’t done immediately and things like that but nothing major. He starts tidying up, which is a stress response of his, cause he got a new phone and doesn’t like spending money not cause he is tidying. He just moves clutter from one place to another, usually a place our 2 year old can reach so I have to move it all again anyway. There isn’t enough room for all this stuff but he won’t get rid of it so to a degree it will always be messy, we don’t have a bedroom atm for the last year due to plastering work. For example there were two bottles in cupboard baby ones I went to throw them out, he took them out the bin saying they were our sons and he can decide when he’s 18 whether they’re to be thrown away or not. Also an interior mirror for the car has been moved around kitchen for a year or more I think it’s from an old van he had. We have all clothes baby has had bar some his mother kept from us, his shoes, toys etc we haven’t gotten rid of a single thing. It isn’t sustainable.
He then says I don’t have food ready for him when he comes home. I tell him I do but he doesn’t eat it. He says I disrespected him by making chicken and chips, which is dry but it wasn’t dry it was really nice actually. He then references a chicken dipper selection I made, which I made cause HE bought it and it was about to go out of date. I would never buy this myself.
I say I made stew for him he didn’t eat it, he says I don’t put effort in. He doesn’t quantify this with anything other than chopping garlic. Pasta that we like doesn’t count cause it’s easy to make. But why does it have to be difficult if it isn’t required? Eventually he says chilli con carne cause surprise someone he works with had it. I have to make it from scratch and boil rice not from a bag. If I cared I’d get up early do his dinner for work etc. I’d make an alarm earlier than his and leave him in bed if I cared.
So I did. This morning I got up at 5:15. I made his dinner, he told me not to while on computer but I said nah I’ll do it cause it doesn’t matter does it you’ll still be horrible. At 6:30 he opens the fridge and says why is there so much sweet corn in this tin? A big tin like, he says I haven’t used enough it’ll not be good enough so he’ll have to bring it back. I go to put more sweet corn on his sandwich and he said there isn’t time. I said he had all the time in the world to raise this up if he got off his game for 5. I said it’s not my fault you don’t communicate to even a basic standard and then use the fact people aren’t psychic to justify punishing them and emotionally abusing them.
He also goes on about all the stuff he’s going to buy himself and then save all his money. I say what about the things I need and he doesn’t answer. Or mumbles something idk.
He goes to leave but he forgot his banana so I run out and give it to him. He made a comment about how he was too busy thinking about his shit work dinner. I told him I’m sure he’ll recover from eating slightly less sweet corn than he’s used to.
I’m sick of him finding ways to justify to himself why the things I do “don’t count” I feel like I can’t win no matter what I do. I hate feeling like shit all the time just worried about how he gonna react to something. Idk what to do. He says he is okay cause he goes to work but when he has it all in his name and he goes off like this over the smallest shit I don’t feel safe. 2 days ago he was bringing me treats telling me he loved me I bought him a curry and got his pjs ready etc for when he was home now this. I also cba with him flipping out over spending money it’s a bit weird, like when he started tidying up all he did was tell me and son to shut up over and over, but he was just messing about so it’s okay but I’m slammed for the slightest shit? Fucked up. Is he expecting too much? Am I not doing enough?
Tl;dr feel crappy all the time what do
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2020.10.27 08:47 Glowing_up Feel like my [29f] relationship with partner [27m] is hurting me.

We live in a house in his name, I paid toward deposit (this was not listed as my contribution in paper) and gave him £150 a few months ago toward it, in cash. I buy food, everything for our son and pay his nursery. He has bought food a couple of times cause our son has a cough so we aren’t going out just cause I cba with people reacting to it it’s not COVID though.
My partner recently took on a second job despite already being comfortable financially. He says it’s because he doesn’t want to play pc as much (he would play from getting home until bed and on days off too).
Then he backtracked and said it was bc I make it unpleasant at home for him. It’s always messy. I mean yea it’s things like dishes aren’t done immediately and things like that but nothing major. He starts tidying up, which is a stress response of his, cause he got a new phone and doesn’t like spending money not cause he is tidying. He just moves clutter from one place to another, usually a place our 2 year old can reach so I have to move it all again anyway. There isn’t enough room for all this stuff but he won’t get rid of it so to a degree it will always be messy, we don’t have a bedroom atm for the last year due to plastering work. For example there were two bottles in cupboard baby ones I went to throw them out, he took them out the bin saying they were our sons and he can decide when he’s 18 whether they’re to be thrown away or not. Also an interior mirror for the car has been moved around kitchen for a year or more I think it’s from an old van he had. We have all clothes baby has had bar some his mother kept from us, his shoes, toys etc we haven’t gotten rid of a single thing. It isn’t sustainable.
He then says I don’t have food ready for him when he comes home. I tell him I do but he doesn’t eat it. He says I disrespected him by making chicken and chips, which is dry but it wasn’t dry it was really nice actually. He then references a chicken dipper selection I made, which I made cause HE bought it and it was about to go out of date. I would never buy this myself.
I say I made stew for him he didn’t eat it, he says I don’t put effort in. He doesn’t quantify this with anything other than chopping garlic. Pasta that we like doesn’t count cause it’s easy to make. But why does it have to be difficult if it isn’t required? Eventually he says chilli con carne cause surprise someone he works with had it. I have to make it from scratch and boil rice not from a bag. If I cared I’d get up early do his dinner for work etc. I’d make an alarm earlier than his and leave him in bed if I cared.
So I did. This morning I got up at 5:15. I made his dinner, he told me not to while on computer but I said nah I’ll do it cause it doesn’t matter does it you’ll still be horrible. At 6:30 he opens the fridge and says why is there so much sweet corn in this tin? A big tin like, he says I haven’t used enough it’ll not be good enough so he’ll have to bring it back. I go to put more sweet corn on his sandwich and he said there isn’t time. I said he had all the time in the world to raise this up if he got off his game for 5. I said it’s not my fault you don’t communicate to even a basic standard and then use the fact people aren’t psychic to justify punishing them and emotionally abusing them.
He also goes on about all the stuff he’s going to buy himself and then save all his money. I say what about the things I need and he doesn’t answer. Or mumbles something idk.
He goes to leave but he forgot his banana so I run out and give it to him. He made a comment about how he was too busy thinking about his shit work dinner. I told him I’m sure he’ll recover from eating slightly less sweet corn than he’s used to.
I’m sick of him finding ways to justify to himself why the things I do “don’t count” I feel like I can’t win no matter what I do. I hate feeling like shit all the time just worried about how he gonna react to something. Idk what to do. He says he is okay cause he goes to work but when he has it all in his name and he goes off like this over the smallest shit I don’t feel safe. 2 days ago he was bringing me treats telling me he loved me I bought him a curry and got his pjs ready etc for when he was home now this. I also cba with him flipping out over spending money it’s a bit weird, like when he started tidying up all he did was tell me and son to shut up over and over, but he was just messing about so it’s okay but I’m slammed for the slightest shit? Fucked up.
Tl;dr feel crappy all the time what do
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2020.10.22 02:03 autotldr Barack Obama Says We Shouldn't Tolerate Trump Like He's Our 'Crazy Uncle' Who 'Retweets Conspiracy Theories'

This is the best tl;dr I could make, original reduced by 57%. (I'm a bot)
In his Biden campaign debut, former President Barack Obama on Wednesday urged Americans to stop tolerating President Donald Trump's behavior in his most scathing rebuke of the president to date.
If Democratic Presidential Nominee Joe Biden wins on November 3, Obama said, "We're not going to have a president that goes out of his way to insult anybody who doesn't support him or threaten them with jail. That's not normal presidential behavior."
"You'll be able to go about your lives knowing that the President is not going to retweet conspiracy theories about secret commands running the world or, or that Navy SEALs didn't actually kill Bin Laden," the former Democratic president continued.
With less than two weeks until Election Day, Trump has trailed behind Biden in every national poll released this month.
Today's Quinnipiac University poll showed Biden tying with Trump among likely voters in Texas, a state that the Democratic Party has not won since 1976.
Newsweek reached out to the Biden and Trump campaigns for comment.
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2020.10.21 01:46 John_Charles_Fremont /r/neoliberal elects the American Presidents - Part 54, Obama v McCain in 2008

Previous editions:
(All strawpoll results counted as of the next post made)
Part 1, Adams v Jefferson in 1796 - Adams wins with 68% of the vote
Part 2, Adams v Jefferson in 1800 - Jefferson wins with 58% of the vote
Part 3, Jefferson v Pinckney in 1804 - Jefferson wins with 57% of the vote
Part 4, Madison v Pinckney (with George Clinton protest) in 1808 - Pinckney wins with 45% of the vote
Part 5, Madison v (DeWitt) Clinton in 1812 - Clinton wins with 80% of the vote
Part 6, Monroe v King in 1816 - Monroe wins with 51% of the vote
Part 7, Monroe and an Era of Meta Feelings in 1820 - Monroe wins with 100% of the vote
Part 8, Democratic-Republican Thunderdome in 1824 - Adams wins with 55% of the vote
Part 9, Adams v Jackson in 1828 - Adams wins with 94% of the vote
Part 10, Jackson v Clay (v Wirt) in 1832 - Clay wins with 53% of the vote
Part 11, Van Buren v The Whigs in 1836 - Whigs win with 87% of the vote, Webster elected
Part 12, Van Buren v Harrison in 1840 - Harrison wins with 90% of the vote
Part 13, Polk v Clay in 1844 - Polk wins with 59% of the vote
Part 14, Taylor v Cass in 1848 - Taylor wins with 44% of the vote (see special rules)
Part 15, Pierce v Scott in 1852 - Scott wins with 78% of the vote
Part 16, Buchanan v Frémont v Fillmore in 1856 - Frémont wins with 95% of the vote
Part 17, Peculiar Thunderdome in 1860 - Lincoln wins with 90% of the vote.
Part 18, Lincoln v McClellan in 1864 - Lincoln wins with 97% of the vote.
Part 19, Grant v Seymour in 1868 - Grant wins with 97% of the vote.
Part 20, Grant v Greeley in 1872 - Grant wins with 96% of the vote.
Part 21, Hayes v Tilden in 1876 - Hayes wins with 87% of the vote.
Part 22, Garfield v Hancock in 1880 - Garfield wins with 67% of the vote.
Part 23, Cleveland v Blaine in 1884 - Cleveland wins with 53% of the vote.
Part 24, Cleveland v Harrison in 1888 - Harrison wins with 64% of the vote.
Part 25, Cleveland v Harrison v Weaver in 1892 - Harrison wins with 57% of the vote
Part 26, McKinley v Bryan in 1896 - McKinley wins with 71% of the vote
Part 27, McKinley v Bryan in 1900 - Bryan wins with 55% of the vote
Part 28, Roosevelt v Parker in 1904 - Roosevelt wins with 71% of the vote
Part 29, Taft v Bryan in 1908 - Taft wins with 64% of the vote
Part 30, Taft v Wilson v Roosevelt in 1912 - Roosevelt wins with 81% of the vote
Part 31, Wilson v Hughes in 1916 - Hughes wins with 62% of the vote
Part 32, Harding v Cox in 1920 - Cox wins with 68% of the vote
Part 33, Coolidge v Davis v La Follette in 1924 - Davis wins with 47% of the vote
Part 34, Hoover v Smith in 1928 - Hoover wins with 50.2% of the vote
Part 35, Hoover v Roosevelt in 1932 - Roosevelt wins with 85% of the vote
Part 36, Landon v Roosevelt in 1936 - Roosevelt wins with 75% of the vote
Part 37, Willkie v Roosevelt in 1940 - Roosevelt wins with 56% of the vote
Part 38, Dewey v Roosevelt in 1944 - Dewey wins with 50.2% of the vote
Part 39, Dewey v Truman in 1948 - Truman wins with 65% of the vote
Part 40, Eisenhower v Stevenson in 1952 - Eisenhower wins with 69% of the vote
Part 41, Eisenhower v Stevenson in 1956 - Eisenhower wins with 60% of the vote
Part 42, Kennedy v Nixon in 1960 - Kennedy wins with 63% of the vote
Part 43, Johnson v Goldwater in 1964 - Johnson wins with 87% of the vote
Part 44, Nixon v Humphrey in 1968 - Humphrey wins with 60% of the vote
Part 45, Nixon v McGovern in 1972 - Nixon wins with 56% of the vote
Part 46, Carter v Ford in 1976 - Carter wins with 71% of the vote
Part 47 - Carter v Reagan v Anderson in 1980 - Carter wins with 44% of the vote
Part 48, Reagan v Mondale in 1984 - Mondale wins with 55% of the vote
Part 49, Bush v Dukakis in 1988 - Bush wins with 54% of the vote
Part 50, Bush v Clinton v Perot in 1992 - Clinton wins with 71% of the vote
Part 51, Clinton v Dole in 1996 - Clinton wins with 91% of the vote
Part 52, Bush v Gore in 2000 - Gore wins with 88% of the vote
Part 53, Bush v Kerry in 2004 - Kerry wins with 89% of the vote
Welcome back to the fifty-fourth edition of /neoliberal elects the American presidents!
This will be a fairly consistent weekly thing - every week, a new election, until we run out.
I highly encourage you - at least in terms of the vote you cast - to try to think from the perspective of the year the election was held, without knowing the future or how the next administration would go. I'm not going to be trying to enforce that, but feel free to remind fellow commenters of this distinction.
If you're really feeling hardcore, feel free to even speak in the present tense as if the election is truly upcoming!
Whether third and fourth candidates are considered "major" enough to include in the strawpoll will be largely at my discretion and depend on things like whether they were actually intending to run for President, and whether they wound up actually pulling in a meaningful amount of the popular vote and even electoral votes. I may also invoke special rules in how the results will be interpreted in certain elections to better approximate historical reality.
While I will always give some brief background info to spur the discussion, please don't hesitate to bring your own research and knowledge into the mix! There's no way I'll cover everything!
John McCain v Barack Obama, 2008
Profiles
  • John McCain is the 72-year-old Republican candidate and a US Senator from Arizona. His running mate is Governor of Alaska Sarah Palin.
  • Barack Obama is the 47-year-old Democratic candidate and a US Senator from Illinois. His running mate is US Senator from Delaware Joe Biden.
Issues and Background
  • The United States and other countries are in the midst of what many are describing as the worst financial crisis since the Great Depression. The crisis was largely triggered by a collapse in home prices, which in turn caused securities tied directly or indirectly to real estate to plummet in value. In September, major investment bank Lehman Brothers filed for bankruptcy. A day later, the Federal Reserve bailed out and essentially took control of insurance giant AIG. Credit markets were on the brink of meltdown. In early October, Congress passed the Emergency Economic Stabilization Act, which created an enormous government program to purchase "toxic assets" from banks and significantly increased the amount of insurance provided by the FDIC. Both McCain and Obama supported this rescue plan. Liquidity appears to have been restored, but the economic situation is still otherwise dire.
    • Senator Obama has described the current crisis as a "final verdict on eight years of failed economic policies promoted by George Bush, supported by Senator McCain, a theory that basically says that we can shred regulations and consumer protections and give more and more to the most, and somehow prosperity will trickle down." Obama has spoken of the importance of oversight over the TARP $700 billion, of the possibility of getting that money back, of making sure none of that money is going to executive pay or executive severance packages, and of following up the package with help for homeowners.
    • Senator McCain has said that what distinguishes him from Senator Obama on how he will lead the country out of the economic crisis is his commitment to get government spending under control. McCain has proposed a one-year spending freeze on "non-defense, non-veterans discretionary spending." McCain has criticized Senator Obama for supporting "pork-barrel spending" in the past.
  • The US occupation of Iraq continues. Last year, the Bush Administration oversaw a troop surge, and the conventional wisdom is that the situation has generally improved as a result. There are some indications that the security situation is improving and that the training of the new Iraqi military is working. That said, pressure on the US to withdraw has increased, as the Iraqi government has sought a withdrawal timetable and the US coalition partners have begun their own withdraw. Security responsibility for several provinces has already been transferred from US forces to Iraqi forces. However, earlier this year, General David Petraeus called for the delaying of troop withdrawals.
    • Both candidates accuse the other of failures of judgement. Senator Obama has criticized McCain sharply for supporting invading Iraq in the first place, while Senator McCain has criticized Obama for not supporting the 2007 surge. On the latter point, in January 2007 Senator Obama's stance was:
      The need to bring this war to an end is here. That is why today I am introducing the Iraq War De-escalation Act of 2007. This plan would not only place a cap on the number of troops in Iraq and stop the escalation: more importantly, it would begin a phased redeployment of United States forced with the goal of removing all United States combat forces from Iraq by March 31, 2008.
    • Early this year, Democrats seized on a statement from Senator McCain in which he indicated that he would be comfortable with an American presence in Iraq for "maybe 100" years. He has stood by the comments, saying he was referring to a presence comparable to what the US has had in South Korea, Germany, and Japan.
    • Under the Obama plan for Iraq, a phased withdrawal of most troops would begin which would likely remove the US troop presence by summer of 2010. A residual force would remain "to conduct targeted counter-terrorism missions against al Qaeda in Iraq and to protect American diplomatic and civilian personnel."
    • Under the McCain plan for Iraq, the US would not leave Iraq "before Al Qaeda in Iraq is defeated and before a competent, trained, and capable Iraqi security force is in place and operating effectively."
  • Sarah Palin has received a significant amount of both positive and negative attention relative to most VP nominees. Supporters praise her history as a reformer, her advocacy for families with special needs children, and her ability to energize parts of the Republican base. However, critics have raised questions about her knowledge of policy and her readiness to be President if it became necessary. Some in the media have expressed frustration at their limited access to Governor Palin. This scrutiny increased following a poorly received interview with Katie Couric which included the following exchanges:
    COURIC: You've cited Alaska's proximity to Russia as part of your foreign policy experience. What did you mean by that?
    PALIN: That Alaska has a very narrow maritime border between a foreign country, Russia, and on our other side, the land boundary that we have with Canada ... We have trade missions back and forth. We -- we do -- it's very important when you consider even national security issues with Russia as Putin rears his head and comes into the airspace of the United States of America, where -- where do they go? It's Alaska. It's just right over the border. It is from Alaska that we send those out to make sure that an eye is being kept on this very powerful nation, Russia, because they are right there. They are right next to -- to our state.
    ...
    COURIC: What other Supreme Court decisions do you disagree with?
    PALIN: Well, let’s see. There’s, of course in the great history of America there have been rulings, that’s never going to be absolute consensus by every American. And there are those issues, again, like Roe v. Wade, where I believe are best held on a state level and addressed there. So you know, going through the history of America, there would be others but …
    COURIC: Can you think of any?
    PALIN: Well, I could think of … any again, that could be best dealt with on a more local level. Maybe I would take issue with. But, you know, as mayor, and then as governor and even as a vice president, if I’m so privileged to serve, wouldn’t be in a position of changing those things but in supporting the law of the land as it reads today.
    ...
    COURIC: And when it comes to establishing your worldview, I was curious, what newspapers and magazines did you regularly read before you were tapped for this to stay informed and to understand the world?
    PALIN: I’ve read most of them, again with a great appreciation for the press, for the media.
    COURIC: What, specifically?
    PALIN: Um, all of them, any of them that have been in front of me all these years.
    COURIC: Can you name a few?
    PALIN: I have a vast variety of sources where we get our news, too. Alaska isn’t a foreign country, where it’s kind of suggested, “Wow, how could you keep in touch with what the rest of Washington, D.C., may be thinking when you live up there in Alaska?”
  • Health care reform has come up frequently on the campaign trail. Both candidates recognize a need to increase coverage and lower costs.
    • The Obama plan includes requiring health insurance companies to cover pre-existing conditions, a tax credit to incentivize small businesses to provide health coverage, requirements on large employers to provide health coverage or otherwise contribute financially to their employee's health care, and "a National Health Insurance Exchange with a range of private insurance options as well as a new public plan based on benefits available to members of Congress."
    • The McCain plan is to offer "a direct refundable tax credit ... of $2,500 for individuals and $5,000 for families to offset the cost of insurance" and promote health savings accounts. McCain also seeks to make it easier to purchase health insurance across state lines.
  • Attention has also been given to the candidate's differing tax plans.
    • The Obama tax plan is to cut taxes for the middle class further than the Bush tax cuts did, while increasing taxes on the wealthiest 2% of Americans back to levels as they were in the 1990s. Senator Obama also seeks to implement a universal 10% mortgage interest tax credit, the elimination of income taxes for seniors making less than $50,000 a year, and an expansion of the EITC.
    • The McCain tax plan is to preserve all of the Bush tax cuts, phase out the Alternative Minimum Tax, cut the corporate tax rate to 25%, and establish a large R&D tax credit. Senator McCain also pledges to keep the Internet free of taxes.
    • In October at a campaign stop, Senator Obama was confronted by Joe Wurzelbacher, who has since become known colloquially as "Joe the Plumber", with concerns that he would be taxed more if Senator Obama were to become President. More recently, Wurzelbacher has made joint appearances with John McCain on the campaign trail. The McCain campaign has in particular seized on Obama's comment to Joe that "I think when you spread the wealth around, it's good for everybody."
  • McCain, currently 72, would be the oldest first-term President if elected. McCain gave reporters an opportunity to review his full medical records, which showed that he is generally in good health and has relatively low risk of heart disease despite slightly elevated cholesterol and past issues with skin cancer.
  • If elected, Senator Obama would be the first African-American President of the United States. Obama was born in Hawaii, the son of a Kenyan economist and an anthropologist from Kansas. While many find the possibility of the first African-American President inspiring, particularly when combined with the optimistic rhetoric of Senator Obama's campaign, his identity has also been related to unique challenges for him during the campaign. Members of his own party during the primary implied that his success in the race was mainly due to his race. Former VP nominee Geraldine Ferraro said:
    If Obama was a white man, he would not be in this position. And if he was a woman (of any color) he would not be in this position. He happens to be very lucky to be who he is. And the country is caught up in the concept.
    Senator Biden, now Obama's running mate, said:
    I mean, you got the first mainstream African-American who is articulate and bright and clean and a nice-looking guy. I mean, that's a storybook, man.
    In addition, Senator Obama has faced false rumors that he was born in Kenya and that he is not Christian. Some argue that the spread of these rumors is motivated partially or entirely by racism.
  • Republicans have argued that Senator Obama is connected to problematic persons and organizations.
    • Roughly 40 years ago, now-professor Bill Ayers was a leading member of the militant Weather Underground Organization, which conducted a bombing campaign of targeting government buildings and financial institutions. Ayers first met Barack Obama through a non-profit reform project's board of directors, and later hosted a small informal event where a departing State Senator introduced Obama as her chosen successor. Through each of their active involvements in Chicago events and initiatives, they would serve on a couple of the same boards and panels in the years afterwards. There is virtually no evidence to support some Republican claims that Ayers was some sort of political adviser to Obama, who has referred to Ayers as "somebody who engaged in detestable acts 40 years ago, when I was 8."
    • Senator Obama's pastor, Jeremiah Wright, has been the subject of controversy related to several sermon excerpts. The excerpts include claims that the government lied about its advance knowledge of Pearl Harbor, that the government lied about "inventing the HIV virus as a means of genocide against people of color," and his comment that "America's chickens are coming home to roost," interpreted by some to be referring to the 9/11 attacks given the date of the sermon. President Obama addressed the issue in a broader speech on race in March of this year. Senator Obama stated:
      I have already condemned, in unequivocal terms, the statements of Reverend Wright that have caused such controversy. For some, nagging questions remain. Did I know him to be an occasionally fierce critic of American domestic and foreign policy? Of course. Did I ever hear him make remarks that could be considered controversial while I sat in church? Yes. Did I strongly disagree with many of his political views? Absolutely—just as I'm sure many of you have heard remarks from your pastors, priests, or rabbis with which you strongly disagreed.
      ...
      I can no more disown him than I can disown the black community. I can no more disown him than I can my white grandmother—a woman who helped raise me, a woman who sacrificed again and again for me, a woman who loves me as much as she loves anything in this world, but a woman who once confessed her fear of black men who passed by her on the street, and who on more than one occasion has uttered racial or ethnic stereotypes that made me cringe. These people are a part of me. And they are a part of America, this country that I love.
    • Pro-labor NGO ACORN has been accused by Republicans of orchestrating voter fraud, though further investigation has revealed this claim to be overstated at best. ACORN has hired people in the past to assist in voter registration, and sometimes these workers have come up with phony registrations - however, this issue seems to be motivated by laziness of individual workers rather than an attempt to conduct voter fraud. Obama served as a local counsel for ACORN in the 90s, and was endorsed by the ACORN political action committee during the primary. The Obama campaign also hired an ACORN affiliate for get-out-the-vote efforts during the primary.
  • Representative John Lewis, a civil rights icon, has received blowback for comments he made regarding the tone of the McCain/Palin campaign. Lewis accused the campaign of "sowing the seeds of hatred and division," and brought up the example of George Wallace never throwing a bomb or firing a gun but creating "the climate and the conditions that encouraged vicious attacks against innocent Americans." McCain called the comments "hurtful" and called on Senator Obama to repudiate the comments. The Obama campaign has said that the comparison made by Rep. Lewis was inappropriate.
  • Senator McCain describes himself as a "free trader" and has criticized Senator Obama for opposing some free trade agreements. The Obama team has pledged to "use trade agreements to spread good labor and environmental standards around the world and stand firm against agreements like the Central American Free Trade Agreement that fail to live up to those important benchmarks." Senator Obama has also pledged to "fix" NAFTA.
Debate Excerpts
First Presidential Debate (full transcript)
(1) Obama on government spending:
John, it's been your president who you said you agreed with 90 percent of the time who presided over this increase in spending. This orgy of spending and enormous deficits you voted for almost all of his budgets. So to stand here and after eight years and say that you're going to lead on controlling spending and, you know, balancing our tax cuts so that they help middle class families when over the last eight years that hasn't happened I think just is, you know, kind of hard to swallow.
(2) McCain on Iraq:
I think the lessons of Iraq are very clear that you cannot have a failed strategy that will then cause you to nearly lose a conflict. Our initial military success, we went in to Baghdad and everybody celebrated. And then the war was very badly mishandled. I went to Iraq in 2003 and came back and said, we've got to change this strategy. This strategy requires additional troops, it requires a fundamental change in strategy and I fought for it. And finally, we came up with a great general and a strategy that has succeeded.
(3) Obama on meeting foreign adversaries "without precondition":
I reserve the right, as president of the United States to meet with anybody at a time and place of my choosing if I think it's going to keep America safe ... Now, understand what this means "without preconditions." It doesn't mean that you invite them over for tea one day. What it means is that we don't do what we've been doing, which is to say, "Until you agree to do exactly what we say, we won't have direct contacts with you."
(4) McCain on Iran:
My reading of the threat from Iran is that if Iran acquires nuclear weapons, it is an existential threat to the State of Israel and to other countries in the region because the other countries in the region will feel compelling requirement to acquire nuclear weapons as well.
Now we cannot have a second Holocaust. Let's just make that very clear. What I have proposed for a long time, and I've had conversation with foreign leaders about forming a league of democracies, let's be clear and let's have some straight talk. The Russians are preventing significant action in the United Nations Security Council.
Vice-Presidential Debate (full transcript)
(1) Biden on what his administration would look like if a President Obama were to die in office:
God forbid that would ever happen, it would be a national tragedy of historic proportions if it were to happen.
But if it did, I would carry out Barack Obama's policy, his policies of reinstating the middle class, making sure they get a fair break, making sure they have access to affordable health insurance, making sure they get serious tax breaks, making sure we can help their children get to college, making sure there is an energy policy that leads us in the direction of not only toward independence and clean environment but an energy policy that creates 5 million new jobs, a foreign policy that ends this war in Iraq, a foreign policy that goes after the one mission the American public gave the president after 9/11, to get and capture or kill bin Laden and to eliminate al Qaeda. A policy that would in fact engage our allies in making sure that we knew we were acting on the same page and not dictating.
(2) Palin on what her administration would look like if a President McCain were to die in office:
And heaven forbid, yes, that would ever happen, no matter how this ends up, that that would ever happen with either party.
As for disagreeing with John McCain and how our administration would work, what do you expect? A team of mavericks, of course we're not going to agree on 100 percent of everything. As we discuss ANWR there, at least we can agree to disagree on that one. I will keep pushing him on ANWR. I have so appreciated he has never asked me to check my opinions at the door and he wants a deliberative debate and healthy debate so we can make good policy.
What I would do also, if that were to ever happen, though, is to continue the good work he is so committed to of putting government back on the side of the people and get rid of the greed and corruption on Wall Street and in Washington.
Second Presidential Debate (Town Hall) (full transcript)
(1) McCain on nuclear energy:
But we kept the debate going, and we kept this issue to -- to posing to Americans the danger that climate change opposes. Now, how -- what's -- what's the best way of fixing it? Nuclear power. Senator Obama says that it has to be safe or disposable or something like that. Look, I -- I was on Navy ships that had nuclear power plants. Nuclear power is safe, and it's clean, and it creates hundreds of thousands of jobs.
(2) Obama on McCain's criticism that he's being reckless on foreign policy:
Senator McCain, this is the guy who sang, "Bomb, bomb, bomb Iran," who called for the annihilation of North Korea. That I don't think is an example of "speaking softly." This is the person who, after we had -- we hadn't even finished Afghanistan, where he said, "Next up, Baghdad."
(3) McCain on Russia:
I said before, watch Ukraine. Ukraine, right now, is in the sights of Vladimir Putin, those that want to reassemble the old Soviet Union. We've got to show moral support for Georgia.We've got to show moral support for Ukraine. We've got to advocate for their membership in NATO. We have to make the Russians understand that there are penalties for these this kind of behavior, this kind of naked aggression into Georgia, a tiny country and a tiny democracy.
(4) Obama on spending priorities:
You know, you may have seen your health care premiums go up. We've got to reform health care to help you and your budget. We are going to have to deal with energy because we can't keep on borrowing from the Chinese and sending money to Saudi Arabia. We are mortgaging our children's future. We've got to have a different energy plan. We've got to invest in college affordability. So we're going to have to make some investments, but we've also got to make spending cuts. And what I've proposed, you'll hear Senator McCain say, well, he's proposing a whole bunch of new spending, but actually I'm cutting more than I'm spending so that it will be a net spending cut.
Third Presidential Debate (full transcript)
(1) McCain on Obama's economic plans:
I don't think there's any doubt that Sen. Obama wants to restrict trade and he wants to raise taxes. And the last president of the United States that tried that was Herbert Hoover, and we went from a deep recession into a depression.
(2) Obama on comments by Congressman Lewis:
I mean, look, if we want to talk about Congressman Lewis, who is an American hero, he, unprompted by my campaign, without my campaign's awareness, made a statement that he was troubled with what he was hearing at some of the rallies that your running mate was holding, in which all the Republican reports indicated were shouting, when my name came up, things like "terrorist" and "kill him," and that your running mate didn't mention, didn't stop, didn't say "Hold on a second, that's kind of out of line."
(3) McCain on Obama's connections:
I don't care about an old washed-up terrorist [Bill Ayers]. But as Sen. Clinton said in her debates with you, we need to know the full extent of that relationship.
We need to know the full extent of Sen. Obama's relationship with ACORN, who is now on the verge of maybe perpetrating one of the greatest frauds in voter history in this country, maybe destroying the fabric of democracy. The same front outfit organization that your campaign gave $832,000 for "lighting and site selection." So all of these things need to be examined, of course.
(4) Obama on who he associates with:
Let me tell you who I associate with. On economic policy, I associate with Warren Buffett and former Fed Chairman Paul Volcker. If I'm interested in figuring out my foreign policy, I associate myself with my running mate, Joe Biden or with Dick Lugar, the Republican ranking member on the Senate Foreign Relations Committee, or General Jim Jones, the former supreme allied commander of NATO.
Those are the people, Democrats and Republicans, who have shaped my ideas and who will be surrounding me in the White House. And I think the fact that this has become such an important part of your campaign, Sen. McCain, says more about your campaign than it says about me.
Platforms
Read the full 2008 Republican platform here.
Read the full 2008 Democratic platform here.
Internet Resources
Obama/Biden Website
McCain/Palin Website
The GOP's BarackBook
The Obama Campaign's Fight the Smears
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Debates
First Presidential Debate
Vice-Presidential Debate
Second Presidential Debate (Town Hall)
Third Presidential Debate
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2020.10.20 23:46 Viper780 nzbhydra2 webserver doesn't start after Upgrade to version 3

Hi
I've nzbhydra2 running for quite some time now. After the release of Version 3.0.0 (and also 3.1.0 and 3.2.0 today) the webUI won't start and also the API isn't reachable.
I'm running it on a recent FreeBSD 12.1
nzbhydra2.log
2020-10-20 14:20:53.815 INFO --- [ main] org.nzbhydra.NzbHydra : Starting NzbHydra with PID 4038 (/uslocal/share/nzbhydra2/lib/core-3.1.0-exec.jar started by nzbhydra2 in /uslocal/share/nzbhydra2) 2020-10-20 14:20:53.827 INFO --- [ main] org.nzbhydra.NzbHydra : The following profiles are active: default 2020-10-20 14:20:56.368 INFO --- [ main] org.nzbhydra.config.BaseConfig : Using data folder /uslocal/nzbhydra2 2020-10-20 14:20:56.945 INFO --- [ main] o.f.c.internal.license.VersionPrinter : Flyway Community Edition 6.2.0 by Redgate 2020-10-20 14:20:56.961 INFO --- [ main] com.zaxxer.hikari.HikariDataSource : HikariPool-1 - Starting... 2020-10-20 14:20:56.990 INFO --- [ main] com.zaxxer.hikari.HikariDataSource : HikariPool-1 - Start completed. 2020-10-20 14:20:57.000 INFO --- [ main] o.f.c.internal.database.DatabaseFactory : Database: jdbc:h2:file:/uslocal/nzbhydra2/database/nzbhydra (H2 1.4) 2020-10-20 14:20:57.083 INFO --- [ main] o.f.core.internal.command.DbValidate : Successfully validated 27 migrations (execution time 00:00.034s) 2020-10-20 14:20:57.097 INFO --- [ main] o.f.core.internal.command.DbMigrate : Current version of schema "PUBLIC": 4 2020-10-20 14:20:57.099 INFO --- [ main] o.f.core.internal.command.DbMigrate : Schema "PUBLIC" is up to date. No migration necessary. 2020-10-20 14:20:57.271 WARN --- [ main] org.nzbhydra.NzbHydra : Overwritten settings will be displayed with their original value in the config section of the GUI 2020-10-20 14:20:57.534 INFO --- [ main] o.n.d.downloaders.DownloaderProvider : Loading downloaders 2020-10-20 14:20:57.534 INFO --- [ main] o.n.d.downloaders.DownloaderProvider : Initializing downloader SABnzbd 2020-10-20 14:20:57.580 INFO --- [ main] o.n.d.downloaders.DownloaderProvider : Finished initializing active downloaders 2020-10-20 14:20:58.555 WARN --- [ main] ConfigServletWebServerApplicationContext : Exception encountered during context initialization - cancelling refresh attempt: org.springframework.beans.factory.BeanCreationException: Error creating bean with name 'problemDetectorTask': Invocation of init method failed; nested exception is java.time.format.DateTimeParseException: Text '' could not be parsed at index 0 2020-10-20 14:20:58.557 WARN --- [ main] .s.c.a.CommonAnnotationBeanPostProcessor : Destroy method on bean with name 'nzbHydra' threw an exception: org.springframework.beans.factory.BeanCreationNotAllowedException: Error creating bean with name 'delegatingApplicationListener': Singleton bean creation not allowed while singletons of this factory are in destruction (Do not request a bean from a BeanFactory in a destroy method implementation!) 2020-10-20 14:21:00.052 INFO --- [ main] com.zaxxer.hikari.HikariDataSource : HikariPool-1 - Shutdown initiated... 2020-10-20 14:21:00.054 ERROR --- [ HydraTask2] o.s.s.s.TaskUtils$LoggingErrorHandler : Unexpected error occurred in scheduled task java.lang.IllegalStateException: EntityManagerFactory is closed at org.hibernate.internal.SessionFactoryImpl.validateNotClosed(SessionFactoryImpl.java:509) at org.hibernate.internal.SessionFactoryImpl.getProperties(SessionFactoryImpl.java:503) at org.springframework.boot.autoconfigure.orm.jpa.DataSourceInitializedPublisher.findDataSource(DataSourceInitializedPublisher.java:105) at org.springframework.boot.autoconfigure.orm.jpa.DataSourceInitializedPublisher.publishEventIfRequired(DataSourceInitializedPublisher.java:97) at org.springframework.boot.autoconfigure.orm.jpa.DataSourceInitializedPublisher.access$100(DataSourceInitializedPublisher.java:50) at org.springframework.boot.autoconfigure.orm.jpa.DataSourceInitializedPublisher$DataSourceSchemaCreatedPublisher.lambda$postProcessEntityManagerFactory$0(DataSourceInitializedPublisher.java:200) at org.springframework.scheduling.support.DelegatingErrorHandlingRunnable.run(DelegatingErrorHandlingRunnable.java:54) at java.util.concurrent.Executors$RunnableAdapter.call(Executors.java:511) at java.util.concurrent.FutureTask.run(FutureTask.java:266) at java.util.concurrent.ScheduledThreadPoolExecutor$ScheduledFutureTask.access$201(ScheduledThreadPoolExecutor.java:180) at java.util.concurrent.ScheduledThreadPoolExecutor$ScheduledFutureTask.run(ScheduledThreadPoolExecutor.java:293) at java.util.concurrent.ThreadPoolExecutor.runWorker(ThreadPoolExecutor.java:1149) at java.util.concurrent.ThreadPoolExecutor$Worker.run(ThreadPoolExecutor.java:624) at java.lang.Thread.run(Thread.java:748) 2020-10-20 14:21:00.058 INFO --- [ main] com.zaxxer.hikari.HikariDataSource : HikariPool-1 - Shutdown completed. 2020-10-20 14:21:00.062 INFO --- [ main] o.apache.catalina.core.StandardService : Stopping service [Tomcat] 2020-10-20 14:21:00.096 ERROR --- [ main] o.s.boot.SpringApplication : Application run failed org.springframework.beans.factory.BeanCreationException: Error creating bean with name 'problemDetectorTask': Invocation of init method failed; nested exception is java.time.format.DateTimeParseException: Text '' could not be parsed at index 0 at org.springframework.beans.factory.annotation.InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor.postProcessBeforeInitialization(InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor.java:160) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.applyBeanPostProcessorsBeforeInitialization(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:416) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.initializeBean(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:1788) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.doCreateBean(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:595) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.createBean(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:517) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractBeanFactory.lambda$doGetBean$0(AbstractBeanFactory.java:323) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.DefaultSingletonBeanRegistry.getSingleton(DefaultSingletonBeanRegistry.java:226) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractBeanFactory.doGetBean(AbstractBeanFactory.java:321) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractBeanFactory.getBean(AbstractBeanFactory.java:202) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.DefaultListableBeanFactory.preInstantiateSingletons(DefaultListableBeanFactory.java:893) at org.springframework.context.support.AbstractApplicationContext.finishBeanFactoryInitialization(AbstractApplicationContext.java:879) at org.springframework.context.support.AbstractApplicationContext.refresh(AbstractApplicationContext.java:551) at org.springframework.boot.web.servlet.context.ServletWebServerApplicationContext.refresh(ServletWebServerApplicationContext.java:143) at org.springframework.boot.SpringApplication.refresh(SpringApplication.java:758) at org.springframework.boot.SpringApplication.refresh(SpringApplication.java:750) at org.springframework.boot.SpringApplication.refreshContext(SpringApplication.java:397) at org.springframework.boot.SpringApplication.run(SpringApplication.java:315) at org.nzbhydra.NzbHydra.startup(NzbHydra.java:162) at org.nzbhydra.NzbHydra.main(NzbHydra.java:114) at org.springframework.boot.loader.MainMethodRunner.run(MainMethodRunner.java:49) [4 skipped] at org.springframework.boot.loader.Launcher.launch(Launcher.java:109) at org.springframework.boot.loader.Launcher.launch(Launcher.java:58) at org.springframework.boot.loader.JarLauncher.main(JarLauncher.java:88) Caused by: java.time.format.DateTimeParseException: Text '' could not be parsed at index 0 at java.time.format.DateTimeFormatter.parseResolved0(DateTimeFormatter.java:1949) at java.time.format.DateTimeFormatter.parse(DateTimeFormatter.java:1851) at java.time.LocalDate.parse(LocalDate.java:400) at org.nzbhydra.problemdetection.VipExpiryDetector.lambda$executeCheck$1(VipExpiryDetector.java:68) at java.util.stream.ReferencePipeline$2$1.accept(ReferencePipeline.java:174) at java.util.stream.ReferencePipeline$2$1.accept(ReferencePipeline.java:175) at java.util.ArrayList$ArrayListSpliterator.forEachRemaining(ArrayList.java:1384) at java.util.stream.AbstractPipeline.copyInto(AbstractPipeline.java:482) at java.util.stream.AbstractPipeline.wrapAndCopyInto(AbstractPipeline.java:472) at java.util.stream.ReduceOps$ReduceOp.evaluateSequential(ReduceOps.java:708) at java.util.stream.AbstractPipeline.evaluate(AbstractPipeline.java:234) at java.util.stream.ReferencePipeline.collect(ReferencePipeline.java:566) at org.nzbhydra.problemdetection.VipExpiryDetector.executeCheck(VipExpiryDetector.java:71) at org.nzbhydra.problemdetection.ProblemDetectorTask.detectProblems(ProblemDetectorTask.java:54) at org.nzbhydra.problemdetection.ProblemDetectorTask.init(ProblemDetectorTask.java:44) at org.springframework.beans.factory.annotation.InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor$LifecycleElement.invoke(InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor.java:389) [4 skipped] at org.springframework.beans.factory.annotation.InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor$LifecycleMetadata.invokeInitMethods(InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor.java:333) at org.springframework.beans.factory.annotation.InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor.postProcessBeforeInitialization(InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor.java:157) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.applyBeanPostProcessorsBeforeInitialization(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:416) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.initializeBean(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:1788) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.doCreateBean(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:595) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.createBean(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:517) ... 26 common frames omitted 2020-10-20 14:21:00.099 ERROR --- [ main] org.nzbhydra.NzbHydra : An unexpected error occurred during startup org.springframework.beans.factory.BeanCreationException: Error creating bean with name 'problemDetectorTask': Invocation of init method failed; nested exception is java.time.format.DateTimeParseException: Text '' could not be parsed at index 0 at org.springframework.beans.factory.annotation.InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor.postProcessBeforeInitialization(InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor.java:160) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.applyBeanPostProcessorsBeforeInitialization(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:416) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.initializeBean(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:1788) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.doCreateBean(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:595) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.createBean(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:517) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractBeanFactory.lambda$doGetBean$0(AbstractBeanFactory.java:323) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.DefaultSingletonBeanRegistry.getSingleton(DefaultSingletonBeanRegistry.java:226) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractBeanFactory.doGetBean(AbstractBeanFactory.java:321) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractBeanFactory.getBean(AbstractBeanFactory.java:202) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.DefaultListableBeanFactory.preInstantiateSingletons(DefaultListableBeanFactory.java:893) at org.springframework.context.support.AbstractApplicationContext.finishBeanFactoryInitialization(AbstractApplicationContext.java:879) at org.springframework.context.support.AbstractApplicationContext.refresh(AbstractApplicationContext.java:551) at org.springframework.boot.web.servlet.context.ServletWebServerApplicationContext.refresh(ServletWebServerApplicationContext.java:143) at org.springframework.boot.SpringApplication.refresh(SpringApplication.java:758) at org.springframework.boot.SpringApplication.refresh(SpringApplication.java:750) at org.springframework.boot.SpringApplication.refreshContext(SpringApplication.java:397) at org.springframework.boot.SpringApplication.run(SpringApplication.java:315) at org.nzbhydra.NzbHydra.startup(NzbHydra.java:162) at org.nzbhydra.NzbHydra.main(NzbHydra.java:114) at org.springframework.boot.loader.MainMethodRunner.run(MainMethodRunner.java:49) [4 skipped] at org.springframework.boot.loader.Launcher.launch(Launcher.java:109) at org.springframework.boot.loader.Launcher.launch(Launcher.java:58) at org.springframework.boot.loader.JarLauncher.main(JarLauncher.java:88) Caused by: java.time.format.DateTimeParseException: Text '' could not be parsed at index 0 at java.time.format.DateTimeFormatter.parseResolved0(DateTimeFormatter.java:1949) at java.time.format.DateTimeFormatter.parse(DateTimeFormatter.java:1851) at java.time.LocalDate.parse(LocalDate.java:400) at org.nzbhydra.problemdetection.VipExpiryDetector.lambda$executeCheck$1(VipExpiryDetector.java:68) at java.util.stream.ReferencePipeline$2$1.accept(ReferencePipeline.java:174) at java.util.stream.ReferencePipeline$2$1.accept(ReferencePipeline.java:175) at java.util.ArrayList$ArrayListSpliterator.forEachRemaining(ArrayList.java:1384) at java.util.stream.AbstractPipeline.copyInto(AbstractPipeline.java:482) at java.util.stream.AbstractPipeline.wrapAndCopyInto(AbstractPipeline.java:472) at java.util.stream.ReduceOps$ReduceOp.evaluateSequential(ReduceOps.java:708) at java.util.stream.AbstractPipeline.evaluate(AbstractPipeline.java:234) at java.util.stream.ReferencePipeline.collect(ReferencePipeline.java:566) at org.nzbhydra.problemdetection.VipExpiryDetector.executeCheck(VipExpiryDetector.java:71) at org.nzbhydra.problemdetection.ProblemDetectorTask.detectProblems(ProblemDetectorTask.java:54) at org.nzbhydra.problemdetection.ProblemDetectorTask.init(ProblemDetectorTask.java:44) at org.springframework.beans.factory.annotation.InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor$LifecycleElement.invoke(InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor.java:389) [4 skipped] at org.springframework.beans.factory.annotation.InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor$LifecycleMetadata.invokeInitMethods(InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor.java:333) at org.springframework.beans.factory.annotation.InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor.postProcessBeforeInitialization(InitDestroyAnnotationBeanPostProcessor.java:157) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.applyBeanPostProcessorsBeforeInitialization(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:416) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.initializeBean(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:1788) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.doCreateBean(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:595) at org.springframework.beans.factory.support.AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.createBean(AbstractAutowireCapableBeanFactory.java:517) ... 26 common frames omitted 
wrapper.log
2020-10-20 14:20:51,214 INFO - Daemonizing... 2020-10-20 14:20:51,357 INFO - Determined java version as '8' from version string 'openjdk version "1.8.0_265"' 2020-10-20 14:20:51,357 INFO - Starting NZBHydra main process with command line: /uslocal/openjdk8/bin/java -Xmx1000M -DfromWrapper -XX:TieredStopAtLevel=1 -noverify -XX:+HeapDumpOnOutOfMemoryError -XX:HeapDumpPath=/uslocal/nzbhydra2/logs -Dspring.output.ansi.enabled=ALWAYS -jar /uslocal/share/nzbhydra2/lib/core-3.1.0-exec.jar --nobrowser --datafolder /uslocal/nzbhydra2 in folder /uslocal/share/nzbhydra2 
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2020.10.20 23:11 NRMacellar The Planet That Came To Little Hunsruck

(This is the second of three parts of a journal dating back to the year 1910. Upon transcribing it, I have decided that it would be appropriate to post it to this subreddit. The first part of the journal can be read here)
When the thought of such things resurfaced next in my mind, it was not by its own volition, but by the peculiar sight of an odd array of short pedestals lining the road ahead of us. Surveying the surroundings more attentively now, I determined at once that were very close upon the summit of the mountain and that upon these pedestals there sat teal-rusted bronze sundials, astrolabes, and water-compasses, all of which were curiously distinctive from one another. I grew more confused as we passed them by, suddenly aware of how strangely intricate they were, and the weirdness of their placement and angulation upon the earth.
My bewilderment was interrupted by the eruption of two hounds, which barreled out from the bushes and strained against their leashes with their every frothy bark. Mr. Winkler raised his voice now, too, hushing them at once with only a couple words so that they did not even growl at my approach.
Before I had even realized it, we had arrived at a little stable hidden away in a rocky crevice. There, I dismounted the mule, and Mr. Winkler untethered its rein and corralled it. Striding upon benumbed legs, I followed Mr. Winkler onward, where—just around a bosky bend in the path—stood a little cottage that embodied all the aspects of a fairy-tale home. Its walls were wrought of whitewashed wattle-and-daub, and its diamond-patterned windows waxed bright and dim with the dancing oil-wick flames behind them. From one corner of it sprang a smallish tower, the middle of which was belted by a curving, porch-like balcony that was well-nigh precarious in the way that it overlooked the mountainside. Ever since leaving the cemetery, there had swelled within me the impression that this Otto Winkler was less of the stereotypical hillbilly which I had presumed him to be, and something more akin to some hermetic sorcerer straight out of a fable—but at that moment I was utterly convinced that the latter must have been the truth.
Grumbling to himself, Mr. Winkler shoved wide the door to his cottage and pried the boots from his bristly feet. I followed him in. The space within the cottage seemed much bigger than I expected it to be from my view of it while I was outside, but this was due in part to the fact that it was nearly devoid of dividing walls whatsoever, conjoining a rudimentary kitchen, pantry, and bedroom into a single room. A simple cot hugged a windowed wall, the sill of which was occupied by a long double-barreled Greenfield shotgun, its careful polish shimmered very smoothly in the lamplight. Above a wash-bin, I took a special interest in a shelf that was, to my surprise, stuffed to the brim with books and newspapers. The newspapers were, of course, most of the same publication which accommodated the articles of the firm, dating back to an impressive amount of years ago. The books themselves, however, were a much stranger matter. The least noteworthy of these was a great big Mennonite bible and a plethora of outdated almanacs. The rest were labeled in German, but among them, I recognized the names of such obscure and scholastic individuals as Dee, Agrippa, Kepler, and Hermann von Reichenau. Their pages all browned and bindings chipped with over a century of handling—handling, which seemingly continued until that day, as I noticed that a few of them were less dusty than others. I browsed them without laying a finger upon them, composing myself here with as much care as I had in Mr. Hewitt’s general store.
Meanwhile, Mr. Winkler ignited a little fire in his hearth-stove. Once he had kindled it sufficiently, he invited me to join him in his observatory. The observatory was, I soon found, what he called the second floor of the corner-tower of the cottage; he led me up the narrow and winding steps to the top only to turn and disappear back down below, leaving me for a fleeting moment in this rudimentary observatory. With the exception of the mule and the books, it had not occurred to me until then that Mr. Winkler could be the proprietor of any object of significant value—but here in this new room, I discovered a surplus of fine telescopes, spyglasses, mirrors, sextants, geometric compasses, and sundry other implements which I could not name. Naturally, I wondered how it was that someone so simple as Mr. Winkler could have come to possess such an assortment of bizarre devices, archaic tomes, and complex instruments, for he seemed such an unlikely hobbyist of all things astronomical. I was still motionless with befuddlement when Mr. Winkler returned, trudging deliberately up the stairs again, this time with fists full of tankards and tavern-pipes. He nodded toward the door which led out onto the exterior balcony, and promptly I opened it so that we could proceed outside. There, we were afforded the respite of two rocking-chairs, a table between them—upon which Mr. Winkler set the mugs and pipes—and a magnificent view of the Smoky ranges.
Now, it was that particularly phantastic quarter of the hour during which all the earth was inky black with the onset of night, yet in the vast, rugged West, there still lingered the slightest hem of sunlight, simmering around the outlines of the mountains as if it were the tempered fire beating against the sooty legs of a great black witches’ cauldron. The Little Hunsruck valley was a single, plunging gouge between Mount Brandt and two others, one on each end of our periphery. They achieved a much greater height than that which we were at currently, but they were far enough apart that their largeness did not impede upon our perspective and rather accentuated the grandeur of it. And the sky was dark violet and full of stars; it was fuller than I had ever seen it, so full that I could scarcely believe that I was only a couple states away from the places where I lived and worked, leaving me to reflect upon how—less than the space of twelve hours ago—I was riding the trolley through the streets of downtown Baltimore, expecting another consecutively humdrum business day. Yet here I was. I had quite forgotten my responsibility for the case which I was meant to be working; however, the mere personal curiosity which had unconsciously blossomed within me for Mr. Winkler posed the very same questions, bubbling to the forefront of my thoughts interchangeably—though never enough to boil over.
Mr. Winkler offered me a tankard, which sloshed dully with drink. He assured me that it was no infamously-potent moonshine, but rather a corn-squeezed brau more akin to beer, which he often drank with his meals. I accepted it without much delay, and so he and I commenced our intermittent drinking, rocking back and forth upon our chairs, and listening to the breezes which gamboled spirit-like through the encroaching verdure of that high place. The taste of the corn-brau was not offensive, but it was hearty to me as I was not yet accustomed to it. Suffice to say, Mr. Winkler downed the drink ere I had guzzled half of it. And not one to remain idle, he wordlessly took up a compact little fiddle from underneath the table, and, sweeping aside his bountiful beard, cradled the fiddle beneath his chin, and set its bow gently upon its strings. He then proceeded to play the fiddle—languidly and unsuspectingly at first—but as he played on, his drawing of the bow increasing rapidly, transforming the dormant sounds of tautness tested to a real, living melody, resembling nothing short of one of those wild, Hungarian dances echoed across Gypsy bonfires and Tartar steppes. So invigorating was this surprising sound that I felt the pulses within me flared up dramatically, and even he himself leaped up from his rocking chair to twirl about as he played. Several times he jounced in the air, clapping his naked heels together without so much as missing a note and stomping so hard upon the rickety porch-balcony planks that I would have worried that he would topple over the side if it were not that the very sight of him engaged in this queer dance caused me to sputter with laughter.
After a while, however, the effect of the corn-brau diminished, and my lungs could scarcely endure such mirth as his feet could dancing; neither could the strings of his fiddle withstand any further playing. Mr. Winkler set down his fiddle and sank back into his chair, this time plucking up one of the tavern-pipes and lighting the bowl of it with a match from the pocket of his overalls. I traded my unfinished tankard for a pipe as well, and he obliged me with a match for myself, which I, no better initiated in the smoking of pipes than in the quaffing of strong drinks, required his hand to light correctly. Thenceforth, I imitated the way that he bit the end of his own pipe, and the intervals of choppy draws and long, silent whistles, putting forth tiny clouds into the atmosphere.
There followed some idle chatter between us then, partially about the flavor of the rabbit-dung which the pipes had been packed with, and partially questioning the existence of jackalopes, until I, wholly unmediated—perhaps a bit loose-lipped from imbibing—asked once more about whatever an elfin moon was. At this, Mr. Winkler became deathly silent, staring at me with wide, shadowy eyes, and remaining motionless for such a prolonged while that I at first presumed I had somehow offended him. This continued to seem to be the case when he stood up from his chair and, without uttering a word, he turned and vanished back inside his observatory. But I did not hear him descend the steps—rather, there arose the din of rummaging, and soon again he stepped back out, this time with arms full of telescopes and spyglasses. He unloaded about a third of them into my lap, and the rest onto the table between us, save for one certain cylindrical thing; it was no glass at all, but instead a roll of paper. He unfurled it, and I saw that it was nothing other than a zodiac star-chart.
With quivering knees, he restored himself to his seat, first waving one hand over the heavens depicted upon the star-chart, and then his other across the real heavens which stretched out over us. With one trembling finger, he pointed to a certain star amid the zodiac, and then into the air, unto—I could only presume—its counterpart in the cosmos. Nonplussed, but intrigued, I raised one of the spyglasses from my lap to my eye, attempting in vain to align it with his outstretched arm. However, having no real familiarity with such things, I gazed upon the stars, and still knew not what to make of them.
I lowered it and looked to Mr. Winkler for elucidation. With quavering lips, he whispered to me—as if terrified to even speak of such things—uttering only these words:
“Thar she is—a’side the Ursa Major. Look’ee ‘er—twinklin’ like a star, ‘cept she aint. Paw, she knows what she is. She comes, she goes; she comes, she goes, all on ‘er own accord. I ‘spect tomorrow she won’t be there, ye’ll see—she’ll be far off from there, an’ a lil’ closer t’here.”
So, at last, Mr. Winkler had engaged the matter of his case. I was initially disappointed at this revelation, anticipating again only clichés and superstitions to be at the root of his worries; I presumed only that he was on the verge of describing the multifold dire omens which are typically heralded with the various arrangements of the stars in the heavens as we perceive them from lowly earth.
“What happens then? Whatever does that entail?” I asked flatly, still with the spyglass pressed against my eye.
But Mr. Winkler deliberately reached his hand over the lens, blocking my sight entirely.
“Don’t stare at ‘er fer too long. Yer enticin’ ‘er to come quicker. Best t’gnore ‘er. That’s what I should’a done—Gott im Himmel!”
I lowered the spyglass and returned to puffing on the tavern-pipe, acknowledging the graveness and peculiarity of Mr. Winkler’s warning. Perhaps this star—or this elfin moon—was, in fact, an astronomical anomaly, the knowledge of which only Mr. Winkler and the astrologers who authored his books possessed; however, I could not know just then for certainty, for I was no seasoned astronomer, nor had I any modern star-charts with me to be compared to the archaic scroll of a zodiac which he showed me then. Deciding it best to entertain Mr. Winkler’s arcane notions for the meantime, I nodded and egged him on.
“Well, tell me, Mr. Winkler—how was it, precisely, that you discovered this elfin moon of yours?” I asked him.
Mr. Winkler’s eyes shifted anxiously between the shadows of the trees before he stood up and responded.
“Come back inside, mister. Ain’t bode well to talk o’it outta-doors.”
So, I helped him collect his telescopes and spyglasses, and we marched back into the observatory; I could not help but notice that Mr. Winkler was keen to shut the door behind us. As soon as Mr. Winkler had descended the stairs, he swept across the few windows, yanking their curtains wholly shut and dousing the oil lamps in motion, single motion. He knelt again at the hearth-stove and stoked it diligently so that it glowed with only as much light as I needed to follow him down. Perhaps these were genuinely cautionary measures for the telling of such strange things, or perhaps it was his theatrical way of establishing mood so that a sense of dread would augment the validity of his account. The dim firelight of that cottage was, indeed, appropriately ghastly, but unlike with other things which I had experienced upon that mountain thus far, I was more than well-acquainted with ghost stories, so I opted to humor him without another remark. I installed myself upon his bed, and Mr. Winkler remained crouched by the fire as he told his tale.
One night, many summers ago, he had angled his lenses toward the heavens in order to read the signs which it showed him, as was his routine—but this time, there seemed to be a star misplaced, or at least one that did not belong to any constellation which he had seen portrayed in his old books of astrology. He was confounded at first, but after a little thought, he decided that, perhaps it was merely missing from the charts due to its insignificance. And if only he could learn to read the books in full, he would learn that it was among those lesser lights which rarely ever shone through the veil of the earth’s atmosphere, visible only at odd angles and particular modes of climate. However, as the nights passed, and summer succumbed to autumn, he realized that the tiny star did not fade, but rather, shone brighter and brighter—almost as bright as the Steadfast Star itself with a hazy marigold hue. Now he could no longer deny that what he was witnessing was entirely apart from any prior observation recorded in his books. This discovery led to an obsession with the star. His interest, however, was not at all one-sided.
Several nights later, Mr. Winkler awoke in the middle of the night to a queer and wholly unfamiliar howling. Listening to the way in which this howling split the air, he determined that came from somewhere very close to his cottage at the summit of the mountain, and that it must have been the agonized cry of a creature caught in one of his foothold traps; moreover, he figured that, for an animal to make a howl so unfamiliar to him, it must not have been native to Little Hunsruck, or at the very least it was not a creature which he intended to kill and skin. Mr. Winkler was as much an ecologist as he was a hunter, for with his many years spent upon that mountain, he had aggregated in his mind fair estimates for the populations of the various species that lived there, and he was careful not to disrupt it. Roe deer, boar, and black bears were his most common game—as on Mount Brandt there was never a shortage of them—but most of the set free without another scratch, sometimes releasing them in the national forest if they were biologically averse to the rocky heights, or if ever their ilk were in dire need of repopulation. So, up and out of the cottage Mr. Winkler went, taking only his Greenfield with him and not so much as bothering with bringing an oil lamp as he presumed that the distance would very short, and given that the moonlight was very bright that night.
Trudging drowsily and stiff-footed across the sticks and leaves, Mr. Winkler made his way down a sharp decline to a gully where the trees grew thickest. Shoving low boughs aside as he went, he sleepily came to the realization that the gully was much clearer to behold than it should have been at that late hour, for all things were bathed in a faint and familiar marigold radiance. This caused him considerable reluctance, but still, he pressed on, not wholly awake enough to register such things. The howling soon subsided just as he had expected it to with the boisterousness of his approach, but when he lifted the final bough from his view, he discovered the foothold trap utterly vacant. Certainly, its plate had been triggered, but whatever beast was snared by it must have—during the short space of time it took for Mr. Winkler to cover the distance between the cottage and the gully—wrenched the jaws wide to free itself, then vamoosed without a sound. Of course, Mr. Winkler examined the teeth of the trap at once for blood, or fur, or skin, but there was nothing of the sort. Instead, he only found tiny, twinkling sparks upon the plate. He noticed several more floating about in the air above it, seeming to circulate around a peculiarly warm and wispy streak of ether, and looping several times through the air before disappearing into the wan of the woods. Mr. Winkler knew that this was the trail of the creature, but he also knew that whatever this creature was, it could not have been of the natural world. He crossed himself and turned to go back up the gully, resolving right wisely that he should not meddle with the supernatural beast.
When he ascended the summit of the mountain, however, a stranger sight greeted him. The moon hung very low over the Little Hunsruck valley, now; it glowed with an unusual marigold tint and shone so brilliantly through the trees that dense, sun-like beams fell upon the whitewashed walls of the cottage. Most outrageous of all was that the moon appeared well-nigh four times its natural size, rendering the surface significantly clearer to the naked eye—almost as clearly as if Mr. Winkler were gazing at it through his finest telescope. But the features of it were so incredibly dissimilar that he thought it less and less to be the moon at all the longer he stared at it. And the longer he stared at it, the more unsuspectingly watched he felt. There was something alluring about the florid texture of the moon, but by that very allurement, Mr. Winkler knew well enough not to gaze long upon it.
Slowly, he retreated into his cottage, sealing the door softly behind him. He noticed then that the marigold moonlight that penetrated the windows had now an altogether different degree of luminescence than when he had awoken just minutes ago. Tactfully, he closed all the curtains, afraid to cast so much as a single glance back outside. After he had done this, he laid back down in his bed, Greenfield clutched at his side, wondering whether or not his eyes had somehow deceived him, and all that which he had just experienced was a feverish dream—but he dared not peer out again to affirm this to himself.
Eventually, he drifted back into slumber. Of course, when he awoke the next morning, he remembered all that had happened. After a period of great hesitation, he worked up the courage to go back outside. Nothing but the pleasant sunrise met him then, so he even ventured back down to check the foothold trap in the gully. Indeed, it had been sprung, but there were no longer any still-glistening sparks upon its plate or in the air to be seen. He rationalized to himself that its trigger was faulty—moreso, he hoped that this was the case. However, when he referred to his almanac, it informed him that the lunar phase of the previous night had, in fact, been a new moon. More worrisome than this, the next night when he again searched the heavens with his lenses, he noticed that the bright marigold star was missing from its former place amid the constellations.
It did not take Mr. Winkler long to arrive at the conclusion that the star could not be not a star at all, and the moon which hung over Little Hunsruck that night—if its presence was, indeed, all true—was not the same moon which orbited the earth once every day, but some other planet entirely. From the farthest, remotest reaches of the cosmos, this planet had seen Mr. Winkler, and it had come to him—and now it had inexplicably gone.
Thenceforth he referred to the planet as Der Elfenmond; accordingly, he referred to the unknown creature which had escaped him that night as die mondelfe.
This was far from his only encounter with Der Elfenmond. The next year, while he suffered from a particularly ailing spell—throughout which he did not so often nor so thoroughly scour the starry sky for signs—he found himself awoken again in the middle of the night. This time, however, no weird howling had roused him—rather, an incredible brightness which had suffused the whole interior of his cottage woke him, gently prying at the seams of his eyelids until they were wide open. At once, he recognized the marigold hue which had spread over all things, and he knew without that the elfin moon had returned to Little Hunsruck. Not even daring to be near to the windows, he forbore from shutting the curtains this time, instead opting to do nothing more than to grip his Greenfield tight and roll off his bed and onto the floor, slinking then underneath his hay mattress to hide from even the slightest ray of moonlight. For he calculated that, by the sheer, fiery resplendence which permeated his cottage, the elfin moon had come even closer to the earth than it had before.
All throughout the night, Mr. Winkler was terrorized by this undiminishing, unabashed brightness. Moments stretched into hours as gradually, the interior walls of his cottage were invaded by strange and terrible shadows—shadows of devilish figures scurrying about, flying freely through the air, and peering curiously through the windows with marigold spheres of their own for eyes. Occasionally, there could be heard heavy foot-falls upon the shingles of the cottage roof as if Krampus had come early that year, and dreadful howls rang all throughout the night, feigning a familiar agony in corners of the mountain in which Mr. Winkler knew for certain he had not set his foothold traps. But what frightened Mr. Winkler most was the unbanishable desire to peer again upon the elfin moon. Often he thought to himself how much plainer the surface of the planet would appear to him with the magnificent nearness of its proximity to the earth, and of wondrous and otherworldly things he might behold upon it—but still he clenched his teeth and restrained himself from such unnatural urges until the marigold moonlight relented to the gaiety of the dawn. He was not always so steadfast, however.
Once Mr. Winkler’s initial fright had subsided, it was replaced with an insatiable curiosity. The space of a year between his two encounters with the elfin moon suggested that it was cyclical in its reoccurrence, yet the nights of its actual arrival were not congruent with one another. He compared his almanacs and, indeed, they were coordinated in that both instances transpired while the earth’s actual moon was still new; it was as if the elfin moon meant to replace the real moon while its visibility had temporarily declined. Against any lingering fears, Mr. Winkler resolved to watch keenly for the third coming—to gaze diligently upon the stars every evening in search of the elfin moon, wholly prepared with every instrument at his disposal to measure its approach.
He discovered it once more the following summer, glinting dully in the night sky just where he had spied it the first time. The first night, he sketched what he beheld from his observatory, taking care to note the constellations that surrounded the elfin moon and the size at which it appeared. As the nights elapsed, he also utilized his astrolabes to determine the trajectory and velocity of the planet, and often he reviewed his compasses in order to detect any special degree of magnetism which its poles may have had. This Tennessee trapper was, though uneducated and partially illiterate, apparently quite a talented geometrician and physicist.
As the elfin moon neared the earth, Mr. Winkler’s results grew more drastic. He knew that very soon—though he knew not the precise day—the elfin moon would shift intensely toward the earth, hovering very close above it until the break of day, when it would mysteriously recede back into the distant cosmos. And then, the time came.
Mr. Winkler was lounging late upon his porch-balcony, nervously pondering over his fuming pipe whether or not this would be the night, or whether he should simply go back inside and sleep until the elfin moon’s arrival awoke him—as he was already straining against the last fibers of his spirit—when up he glanced, back unto the marigold speck in the night sky and saw that the entire planet had suddenly manifested before him. It shone down upon him with a stinging, phosphorescent flash that well-nigh rendered Mr. Winkler blind. By the time he pried open his eyes again, he gazed upon the curve of an outlandish horizon which hovered perilously close to the summits of the Smoky ranges, imbued with marigold mountains and valleys of its own and ceaselessly vast in its measures.
What followed, Mr. Winkler could not recall—or, perhaps dared not recall. He said only that, for the remainder of the night, he was overwhelmed with the notion that he was, in fact, upon this elfin moon more than he was upon the earth, and that he saw many things which could not adequately compare to that which he had ever seen in books or newspapers. The experience was, he told me, as if a ghostly mare had taken him up onto its back and galloped headlong into an abstract and unrelenting realm of dreams—but I knew by his wide and fiery eyes that he meant not pleasant dreams.
He awoke the next morning, still reclined in his rocking chair, but feeling utterly exhausted as if he had not slept a wink in days; he was starved, parched, and his pulses trembled so sorely with adrenaline that he could scarcely stand straight upon his legs. Somehow, he felt tricked—horribly exploited, unimaginably foolish, and beyond terrified. He wished nevermore to look upon the accursed planet, that marigold elfin moon, but there was deeply instilled in him now the impression that next year, he would, and that he must.
Every year since then, Mr. Winkler has been dutiful to track the appearance and the motions of the elfin moon—only so that he could predict, precisely, which night he should make certain that he was early indoors, and that the curtains were wholly shut, and he was incumbent beneath the mattress when came the planet. This was a grueling process of trial-and-error, as on two separate occasions afterward, he miscalculated the cycle of the elfin moon, becoming unwittingly caught in its staggering brilliance, subsequently spellbound and shanghaied unto alien realms beyond comprehension. In recent years, however, it seemed he finally had the planet figured. For he had succeeded in evading the planet’s luminescence for five consecutive years.
Despite this, Mr. Winkler doubted very much that he would manage to escape it for a sixth year. He was convinced of the notion that the elfin moon had actually grown angry with him for shunning it for so long—for this year, it’s brightening amongst the stars seemed doubly accelerated in comparison to the year previous—and this time, there was no escaping its fury. And that he would be forever married off to this planet, unable to return to the mountains of his proud forefathers as he was permitted to do before. That day, he said, was nigh; Der Elfenmond would come for him ere the week was out.
The moment Mr. Winkler finished, I had no opinion whatsoever of whether this incredible account was true or not. Firstly, arriving at any solid conclusion was generally outside the area of my work in the firm, as its priority was thoroughness in reviewing the accounts of its clientele and conciseness in presenting the case; plausibility, though important, was secondary, and was often decided after sufficient research had been amassed. Secondly, I was quite shocked by the absolute outlandishness of the tale which Mr. Winkler spun for me—even so, that the uniqueness and intricacies found within it counterweighed the sheer absurdity of it all. Moreover, the late hour and the extensiveness of my day had sapped me of all vigor. My reclining upon the bed would have lulled me to sleep sooner had Mr. Winkler’s fearful voice not kept me lucid. Soon after he had relinquished the cottage to silence, weariness washed over me, and I believe I did not so much as nod or grunt in acknowledgment of his words before I slipped into unconsciousness.
(Read the third part of the journal here.)
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2020.10.19 23:12 TrueNorth379 Dumped by my boyfriend after realizing he was an alcoholic

For 8 months, I was with my boyfriend; everything was perfect. I thought I'd finally found my soul mate. He was kind, caring, bought me flowers, loved my kids, and the time we spent together was wonderful except for a few strange things. He would randomly bail on plans, say he needed time alone (but would never blame it on me in the early days), randomly feel sick and go home from my house. We only spent about 2, maybe 3 days a week together, and he never stayed over or let me stay over 2 nights in a row. He drank wine every day but I NEVER saw him drunk so I didn't think it was a problem. About 2 months ago, he started getting more distant and wanting more time alone, saying it was because I was "pushing the relationship too fast." This was the 8th month, where normally (and in my past relationships), we'd be talking about plans for the future. He told me I was being unrealistic for thinking like that, and pushed me farther and farther away. He started wanting more time alone, telling me not to come over or stop by. During this time, I started researching reasons why someone would be able to drink a bottle of wine a day and not be drunk...then once I put it together I felt really stupid for being duped the entire time. When I started actually looking, I found empty bottles of gin in the recycle bin. His hands would shake, he'd randomly "not feel good," couldn't sleep, and I never put two and two together. So I said to him, "do you think you might have a drinking problem?" and he got angry, denied he had a drinking problem, and broke up with me. Saying he "couldn't give me the commitment I want in the relationship" and that I was "pushing it too hard" and it was my fault we had to break up, nothing to do with his drinking. I was devastated. I'm STILL devastated. He won't talk to me anymore and is already dating other people. I talked to his ex-wife and confirmed that he is in fact an alcoholic and that played a major role in their divorce; but I loved this person so much that I still have guilt that this is my fault or that there's something I could have done differently to save the relationship. I know in my heart that I'm probably better off, but almost two months later I'm still having such a hard time. Crying almost every day. Maybe I'm crying over losing a person I thought I loved, but who I never really knew. Has this happened to anyone else? How did you deal with it and move on?
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2020.10.19 18:44 BoopThisIsMySam Everyone has that novel they wrote in their angsty high school days, right?

Well, this is mine. I've been mulling over posting it to get some feedback for some time, I'm not going to lie when I wrote this, I was super thin-skinned about it because I had poured my teenage heart and soul into it. But it's been years since then, and I think I'll be able to take criticism okay.
I'd be more than appreciative of any thoughts, up to and including:
Thanks for reading however much you do. If you want me to post more, you'll have to let me know - I promise not to subject anyone to more if the consensus is that it's awful.
Edit - Okay, I've never tried to post anything this big before...dumped the rest of the chapter into comments, but if anyone is actually interested in reading all on one page, I put it on PasteBin.
https://pastebin.com/PPZH8J3e

Prologue

“The end is not near, nor is it for certain. But something is coming. Someone. An angel, with wings of black. His coming will herald the coming of the Anti-Christ, who will be born after the angel has arrived. This angel is the only thing that can stand against Satan and the Anti-Christ, to stop them from achieving dominion over Heaven, Hell, and Earth.”
“When the doom of Satan is nigh, the angel will bleed from non-existent wounds, enough to sate every demon in Hell. He will use this power to unite all of Hell under a single banner. Then, when every living being follows the angel, and Satan is alone in the darkness, the angel will confront Satan in the void.”
“If he should fail in his duties, Satan will rise up, and destroy the Most High and take this Creation as his own. But if the new light prevails, then Satan the Morning Star, Prince of the Dawn, shall fall again, and never draw another breath.”

Chapter One

I felt a strong blow to the side of my head, and suddenly I was falling. I opened my eyes, to see a jagged rock wall in front of me. I forced my head to look to the left, and saw another wall. It looked like I was in a giant chasm, as if someone had pulled the earth in half, and I was falling through the crack. It was getting hotter, almost too hot for me to stand. Then, the rock disappeared, and I was thrown into a bank of purple clouds. The heat was getting worse, and it almost felt like my body was going to spontaneously burst into flame. As the purple clouds pooled around me, everything started to get foggy. Then, my vision turned off.
I woke up, my skin damp with sweat. It had been that dream again - the same one that had been waking me up early for the past few weeks. It would come around four in the morning, I guess, though I know dream time worked differently than real time. I always woke up around 4:15. And it was the same dream, every time - falling through a chasm, then being tossed out into purple clouds. I had done a brief Google search on it, but Google never really yielded that much for me. Just a bunch of psychobabble.
I slid out of bed, letting my feet hit the carpeted floor. I never knew what to do after the dream woke me up. I was always totally awake when sleep vanished - no chance of falling back into the void. Now, not that I’m a pill addict, but yes, occasionally I had popped several PM pills or something to get back to sleep when I had either been up late, or had something important going on in the morning, like an interview or whatever. The interviews weren’t going that great, by the way. Even in 2045 the job market was still pretty scarce. You would think that we would have flying cars, infinitely intelligent computers, and college would have been deprecated, but you’d be wrong. All we had accomplished so far was a few remakes of good movies, and more pollution. I mean, I kind of liked the smog that covered New York City - it put me in my depressed-creative mood, something that only an artist can truly understand. I drew things on occasion - drawings, paintings, sketches - but only when the mood really struck. I didn’t really have a girlfriend or anything to draw things for, so it was mainly just something to entertain me while I was sitting in my bed, at 4:15 AM, wide awake.
I stood up, my bare feet padding over the wool carpet, across the room to my computer. It wasn’t that great of a rig - I won’t bore you with the details, but it cost about a grand - but it certainly got the job done. I sat down in my nice spinney chair, awakening it with a word, and logging on to the latest social whatever website that had people’s attention. No one was on, obviously, considering it was four in the morning. I guess it was that addiction thing creeping up on me. I was about to open up a word document and start working on whatever caught my mind, when something started to pull my eyes away from my computer. It was the window to the right of my desk - the curtains weren’t drawn, and I could see a light coming from the house next to us.
This was a big thing. I had lived here for most of my life, and the house next door had always been empty. Like, empty empty. This was the first time I had actually seen someone inside. Now, it appeared that there was someone in it, which was odd considering I hadn’t noticed any sort of moving trucks around. I leaned back in my chair as inconspicuously as possible, and peeked my head out into the opening of the window to see...
“Crap!” I yelled loudly as I lost my balance, and back-flipped the chair out from under me. I hit the ground reasonably hard...hard enough to awaken my foster parents beneath me. I froze for a moment, not worried about getting in trouble necessarily, but not wanting to wake them up. Everything was completely silent - the house was creaky enough for me to tell when someone moved downstairs or otherwise. After about a minute, I slowly got to my feet, feeling a bit sheepish, and bent down to put the chair back in the upright position. Then, I saw her.
It was like there was a goddess outside my bedroom window, and my room was bathed in a golden light. Not really. The light part was in my head. But it was like Aphrodite herself was sitting at a computer in the house next door to me, silhouetted by her window. She was one of the most beautiful girls I had ever seen. Her hair was cut short, and reached down to just above her neck. It was colored blonde on top, and black on the bottom, something that I found rather attractive. She had some metal in her ear, the one that I could see, but she was too far away for me to make out any specific pieces of jewelry. She was wearing a cami, and I could see her figure from here. Even sitting down, her body looked flawless - I could tell she was tall, but her weight was evenly distributed to the point where she had a body that most sane people would kill for. I couldn’t see her eyes - if I could see her eyes, we would have a much bigger problem - but everything I could see-
“Crap!” I yelled for the second time, hitting the ground again.
“Not very dexterous, this guy,” I muttered through gritted teeth, hoping still that I hadn’t woken anyone up. After a minute or so, after not hearing any signs of them waking up, I sighed, shook my head at my silliness, and picked the chair back up. I casually looked out the window again, and...
She was looking at me.
Between the immediate demand of panic that my heart gave me and the nonchalance that my mind calmly ordered, I managed to maintain eye contact with her for a split second, before giving her the tiniest shade of a wolfish grin, and looking over to the horizon, as if searching for the sun. When I turned my head back to my room, to replace my chair, it passed over her window. She was gone.
Her eyes were green.
I shivered. Green eyes. I loved green eyes.
So, who the heck was this new kid? Maybe I’d roll the dice and take the bus to school tomorrow...well, if I happened to see her out at her house, anyway. Not everyone had a car these days, so it was possible she’d ride in. Now, this was all for the purpose of approaching her, which I probably wouldn’t even be able to do for a few days, but early recon was always important when you’re working up to it. It was funny - all I’d gotten was a tiny peek at the girl, and I was already fantasizing about meeting her. Was this what love at first sight was? No, couldn’t be - that was far too corny for me to actually say out loud. She was just damn beautiful. Certainly the ideal girl for me, under the best circumstances. Now, I’m not the overly self-conscious type, mind you. I have nice long hair, nice eyes, a body I’m reasonably happy with, and I’m a little under six feet. Not bad, at least I didn’t think so. But then again, I was hardly the athletic, sporty type that this new girl looked like she was destined to be paired with. She was like, prom queen material, paired at the elbow with some hot quarterback that wasn’t me.
I shook my head, tossing those thoughts out of my head. I was completely overreacting - it was just a girl next door. I would meet her, talk to her, and see where it went. Perfect plan, right? Right?
All of this musing had made the time virtually disappear. When I looked at the clock on my computer, it read 5:15. An hour? I hadn’t really spent an hour thinking about how to approach this chick, had I? No, that was very bad. I tilted my head, and smacked my top ear a few times.
“Out, out, out, out of my head,” I demanded facetiously, “I have better things to do”.
After a second, I straightened up.
“All better,” I chuckled, then went and unplugged the alarm before it could go off. It was one of those special alarms - when it went off, it tossed a ball up in the air, and it wouldn’t go off until I found the ball, and put it back in the launcher. You laugh, but this was something that I literally needed to have...until the nightmares started, at least. Now I always beat it by an hour. I grabbed a change of clothes, then opened the door to my room, looked to each side, and then proceeded across to the shower. Now, there were rare occasions where I did take long showers, but before school was never one of them - I was liable to put myself to sleep in the shower, and that would yield bad results. My teachers never appreciated it when I was late to class, even though I never really did much of anything in class anyway. I had a car, and could haul ass to get there when I was running late, as a general rule, but tickets weren’t any better than being late.
Like I said, shower was quick. I got out, got dressed, and went down the steps, trying to be as quiet as possible, though I was convinced that the shower would have woken anyone who was sleeping up. There was still no one awake, though – Mom2 and Dad2 were still out cold. It was 5:30. The bus came at 6:00, and I usually left at 7:00. School started at 7:20, but it was a long bus ride, full of all the freshmen that couldn’t drive. I glanced out the kitchen window - it was too early for anyone to be outside, yet...there she was. She was standing outside, a backpack at her side, her head tilted to one side as she looked down the road, waiting for the bus.
Cue the mini panic attack!
What do I do? What do I do? Should I go out and talk to her? Should I leave her there and go out when the bus comes? Should I let her ride the bus the first day then talk to her tomorrow? Should I just forget about everything because she was just a girl and would just add drama to my life?
I was leaning towards the last option - she was damn gorgeous, yes, but was a woman really what I needed right now? Seriously? Junior year, I had straight freaking A’s. And I had a bit of money put away from the last job. As wonderful as this girl was, I knew myself. Those two things were sure to change as soon as I asked her out. Y’know, if she said yes.
Then, suddenly, before I even knew what I was doing, I was on my way outside. No breakfast, no nothing. It was like bam, one second I was reaching into the fridge, the next, I was almost at the door. I pulled my keys out of my pocket, holding them by the lanyard as I closed the door, then turned and put the key back in the top lock, fumbling it for a second, and actually dropping it. Flushing red, even though I knew that she couldn’t see, all the while wondering why I even cared if she saw, and why I cared that she was out here so early, I stooped, picked up my keys, and put them back into the lock, turning it until I heard the click. Then, I turned towards the sidewalk. I was hoping for another one of those little mini blackouts, like when I went from the fridge to the door in zero seconds. No such luck. I froze just before I got to the sidewalk.
Move! I demanded of myself, She’s just a girl! Don’t....be....so....damn...stupid!
Unfortunately, my legs were not buying it. I slowly moved towards her, my feet coming along in slow, jerking motions. She was still looking to the left - no, damn, she looked this way. Instantly, my body came back under my own control. I straightened up and started moving at a quicker pace.
“Hey!” I called out softly, raising my hand up in a wave. She smiled - No, god, please, don’t give out on me now, knees - and softly waved back.
“Good morning.”
I was right in front of her now, not close enough to kiss her but close enough to be within arm’s reach. Then...any words I could possibly have wanted to say vanished.
“Ah...” I said, my mouth falling open, but nothing intelligent coming out.
“Too early, huh?” she chuckled, her eyes teasing me. Green eyes.
“Gah,” I managed to get out, “Gah-ah.”
“I’ll take that as a yes,” she said, a smile coming to her lips, “Are you car-less too?”
Finally, I snapped out of it. A car. That was the reason for coming here, right?
“Oh!” I said, then quickly shook my head, trying to clear it of gibberish, my long hair flying in the wind, “God. I’m sorry. It’s been a long morning, and I haven’t slept that much. Hi! I’m Logan DeRais, your new neighbor.”
Her smile widened, and she laughed.
“That explains a lot,” she said, “I’m Persephone Alban. My Mom and I just moved here from Grand Prarie.”
“It’s good to meet you,” I said, forcing a shaky smile on my face, “You just moved here, and you’re starting school already?”
“Yeah...my Mom wouldn’t hear it when I asked her to let me wait a week or so,” she groaned good-naturedly, “New Park High, right?”
“Yeah,” I rolled my eyes, “Home of the Raging Platypuses!”
“Oh my god, you’re joking!” she said, cracking up. This was good. We were talking. She was laughing. She wasn’t spraying me in the face with pepper spray.
“Not even,” I chuckled, “What a place, right?”
“Yeah,” she grinned, showing her teeth - straight, perfect, pearly white teeth - “What year are you?”
“I’m a junior,” I said, “And you?”
“Same,” she nodded, “And you don’t have a car?”
“Well, actually that’s what I came over about,” I said, the words coming out all at the same time, “I saw you out here way early, and figured I’d ask if you wanted a ride to school.”
“You have a car?” she said, eyebrows raised, “Not bad, DeRais. What kind?”
I chuckled nervously, “Does it matter?”
“Not really,” she said, “However, since you offer, kind sir, I would adore a ride to school.”
I stuttered for a second, unable to believe my luck - silently berating myself for suddenly losing all self-confidence and certainty from one girl - then pointed towards my garage.
“Well, if you’d be so kind as to follow me...”
“It’s not a white van, is it...?” she laughed as we walked towards my house.
“Not hardly,” I said, “I much prefer this car over a white van.”
We reached the garage, and I punched in the code to put the door up. As it rose, light flooding the inside, my car came into view.
“Wow,” Persephone said, “Are you serious? Is that really your car? It’s not your dad’s or something?”
“Nope,” I said, grinning proudly, “100% mine...though it was a gift, not something I actually earned the money for.”
“My god,” she said, “This is an awesome car. 2039 Camaro ZL9000. My god.”
“You know what kind of car this is,” I said, almost in disbelief, “Seriously?”
“I love Camaro,” she gushed, “I don’t want to sound girly about it, but holy crap, I love your car.”
“On the list of things that sound girly, gushing over a car isn’t one of them,” I snorted, “Shall we go?”
My god. It was actually working. And she knew cars. What planet had this mysterious, gibberish-inducing girl come from? Was she an alien? That would explain a lot.
I clicked the car open, rather smoothly if I do say so myself, and slid in. Persephone opened the door and hopped into the front seat. I turned my head to her, watching her put her seat belt on. My god. She was wearing short shorts and a cami. I hadn’t even noticed what she was wearing when I walked up to her, I was so absorbed in the terror of approaching this goddess-like female. I heard the click of her seatbelt going into the holster, and realized immediately that I was staring at her - something that would not get me cool points. Somehow, I managed to tear my eyes away from her body, which was now, incredibly, sitting in the passenger seat of my car. I pressed the magic button that turned the car on - it roared to life, the purr of the engine filling the garage.
“Oh my god,” she said, continuing to marvel at my car, something that I was completely content to let her do, “How much did this cost?”
“It was a gift,” I chuckled, “My father is rather well off. This used to be his, but he quickly decided that he wasn’t the kind of old geezer that wanted to drive a sports car. Instead of selling it somewhere, he gave it to me.”
“You’re a lucky bastard,” she grinned, and we made eye contact again. My heart skipped a beat.
“Not that lucky,” I chuckled, throwing the car into gear, and smoothly rolling out of the garage, clicking the door shut behind me. I’m not ashamed to say, I showed off. A lot. Yes, it’s a bit risky, going to school at 75 MPH the whole way, but I think she enjoyed it.
“Okay,” I said, “You’re shotgun, so that makes you cop lookout. Think you can handle it?”
“Not a problem,” she chuckled, “How far is it to the school?”
“At this rate, we’ll probably get there in about five minutes,” I said, “Although, unless you have some pressing engagement at the school, I’d like to hang out in the car for a bit. We could talk, or sleep, or listen to music. But it’s like 5:45, and school doesn’t start until 7:20. I don’t think they even open the doors until 6:30.”
“That’s okay,” she said, “We can hang out for a bit. The least I can do to repay you for the ride is talking to you for a little bit. Besides, I love this car...”
“What a coincidence,” I chuckled, “I happen to love this car too.”
“What else do you love?” she asked, as we pulled into the school, “What kind of stuff do you enjoy?”
“We’ve reached the interrogation stage already?” I chuckled as I turned, and parked, “How did this happen?”
“Well, you’re a nice kid, and I’m nice, too. There’s no reason we shouldn’t be friends,” she said, “And friends need to know things about each other, right?”
“Well, yeah,” I said, shifting the car into park, unbuckling my seatbelt, and turning to face her, “I’m just surprised. I literally just saw you fifteen minutes ago.”
“You forgot about four in the morning,” she giggled, “I saw you, you know. You’re not that lucky.”
“Oh,” I said, my face turning scarlet, “I had been hoping that had been a dream...”
“Nope!” she said, “I totally saw you. I saw you fall over, too, which made me laugh.”
“Damn,” I muttered, “Busted...”
“I’m sure you were disappointed that I was wearing clothes,” she said, her eyes sparkling, “Isn’t that what usually happens in movies?”
I got even redder. “What, are you trying to turn me into a tomato?” I demanded, “I don’t look good in red.”
“You look fine to me,” she said, “Even with the red. So, before you got us off topic, I was asking you something. What do you enjoy?”
“I like computers,” I said, “Hobby, passion, future career path, whatever. It’s easy for me, and I enjoy figuring out why things don’t work. Want to know the top three reasons for a computer not working?”
“Sure,” she said, looking at me. She actually looked interested, which was nice for a change. Most people tuned me out. Not that I was a wallflower, mind you. I just never really found a girl that cared about computers in the slightest.
“One, it’s not plugged in.” I said, “Two, it’s the hardware’s fault. Three, they’re using Windows.”
“So, you blame everything,” she said.
“Not entirely,” I said, “I just tend to blame hardware over software. Windows is software, but it tends to break a lot. And all the old people forget to plug their computers in.”
“So what do you suggest?” she asked, “A Mac?”
“Of course not,” I said, “I mean, not for me, or any technically savvy person. I like Windows as much as the next person, it just breaks a lot. But as of right now, it’s the best operating system out there. Linux is great for tech savvy people, and Macs are great for rich people. Windows is great for the rest.”
“So, when Windows breaks, what should a person do?” she asked, “You haven’t really given much option for anything.”
“That person would come to me,” I said, “I fix things, and if it takes me less than two hours, it’s free.”
“I’ll have to take you up on that sometime,” she chuckled, “My computer isn’t very happy with me right now.”
“I’ll fix it,” I said, “Just give me a date.”
“Your enthusiasm is adorable,” she smiled coyly, “Do you want to keep going, or should we take turns?”
“Take turns,” I affirmed, “I like to know stuff too. After all, I did just drive you to school, and save you from waiting outside for an hour and a half. It would be nice to know who you are.”
“Well, I’m Persephone,” she said, “I’m seventeen, eighteen in July. I lived in Canada my whole life, until we moved here. I’ve had a few boyfriends, but no one that lasted very long. I never study, and I still get A’s. I like sleeping, Legend of Zelda, and going to concerts. And, thankfully, I’m an only child.”
“Wow, that was a lot more than what I said,” I said, shaking my head, “I feel like you just kicked my butt.”
“That was the idea,” she said, “But now it’s your turn. Give me a general outline of your life?”
“Are you sure you want that?” I asked, “It might take a while,”
“Sure,” she said, “Lay it on me. It’s not like we have anywhere to go.”
“If you say so,” I chuckled, “I’m seventeen, too. I’m Logan Jonathan DeRais. My mother’s name was Serah, and my father’s name was Jacob. I also had a twin sister, named Haylee. They’re all dead. They died right after I was born, in a car accident.”
Persephone’s face got a little pale. Yeah, it was a lot to dump on someone, but she had asked. Besides, we were bound to get to it at some point.
“I’m...sorry,” she said softly, “That’s horrible.”
“It happened when I was born,” I shrugged, “I never really knew them, you know? I’ve been raised by adoptive parents, and it’s worked out just fine for me so far. We’ve lived in that house forever. No one has ever lived next to us, though, which is why I was sort of creeping on you. I was really surprised. I mean, seeing this hot chick out my window at four in the morning is enough to knock anyone on the ground.”
She laughed - that same, beautiful laugh that almost like heavenly musi-
Stop. No, stop, right now. Stop reading. Disregard that last line. I refuse to acknowledge that I could ever get corny enough to say something like that.
She laughed, her eyes sparkling, “Thank you,” she said, “You’re sweet.”
“I do my best,” I said, “It works better than being an asshole. Besides that, I sleep through my classes and get A’s, I seldom do anything school related, and I positively hate classes that don’t involve me being on a computer during the entire class. I’ve had one or two girlfriends, but to be honest, they all ended up being crazy. I’ve sworn off relationships for the time being, but that could change at any time, should the right lady come across my path. Besides that, I like to do horrible things to my computers, I try to write but I fail a lot, and I hate sleeping.”
“Oh, this isn’t going to work out,” she said, “I can see it already. You’re going to text me when you’re awake at 4 in the morning, and I’ll be asleep. You’ll wake me up; I’d tear your head off, and have to move again.”
“Well, I think I’ll be able to tell if you’re up or not,” I said, “I can see right into your window.”
“That in itself is a rather dangerous fact,” she said, “You might see something you don’t like.”
“I don’t consider myself someone that can be easily offended,” I shrugged, “I really don’t have any boundaries. Why, do you?”
“Not particularly,” she said, “I saw you staring at me through your window, and I’m still talking to you. What does that tell you?”
“That you’re not easily sketched out or judgmental,” I chuckled, “Should I continue, or do you know enough about me?”
“Well, you did mirror what I said,” she said, “So I suppose that makes it my turn.”
Before she could say anything else, I heard the locks to my car doors click open. Persephone’s door opened a second later, and Holly leaned in to stare at us.
“Wow,” she commented, “I would say get a room, but I supposed you had one until I opened the door. This is new, Logan. When did this happen?”
Meet Holly Valkyrie, my best friend. I’d known her since kindergarten. Back then, she was the girl that wore boots to school, and kicked all the boys in the shins. I honestly don’t remember how I met her. There’s a vague memory floating around my mind about a terribly violent fight over the last half of an oatmeal cookie, and both of us getting bloody noses, but I’m not sure if that was it or not. But regardless, she and I had been tight for almost twelve years. Holly was a bitch, and proud of it. She had no problem calling things exactly like she saw them, butting in where she didn’t belong, and saying some of the crudest things I’d ever heard. Despite her boyish attitude, large chest, and beautiful dark red hair, somehow I had completely avoided ever having any kind of a crush on her. That’s impressive, for those of you who don’t know. I had a thing for redheads.
But, yeah. That was Holly. Holly also had the spare pair of keys to my car, which she often put to a use that was not their intended use.
“Holly,” I said, without batting an eye, “This is Persephone. She’s my new neighbor. She moved into the house right next to me. I gave her a ride to school.”
“I bet you did,” she leered, “Pleased to meet you, Persephone. I’m Holly. I just want you to know, that if you have any interest in mating with Logan, that you have my blessing.”
“Good to know,” she chuckled, shooting me a quick smile.
“Do you want to get in? Or were you just saying hi?” I asked her, my face turning a little redder.
“I don’t mind eavesdropping,” she said, leaning in closer, “Now that you guys are getting married and all, it’s important for me to know her, you know? Just to make sure I’m not letting you go off with a psychopath.”
“Like that’s never happened before,” I rolled my eyes.
Persephone, the good sport that she appeared to be, hopped out of the front seat.
“Get in!” she said, “Don’t mind the duct tape and the shovel in the back.”
“I haven’t had to sit in the back of this car in four years...” Holly grumbled, “Whatever happened to bros before hoes?”
“Did you bring food, Holly?” I asked her, as Persephone got back in, and shut the door, warding off the cold air. It was the beginning of December, and the ground was starting to frost in the morning. Thank god I didn’t have to freeze my balls off waiting for the bus anymore.
“Why do you need food?” she asked, “You always need food, you horrendous fatty.”
“I kind of walked out without breakfast,” I mumbled.
“You see? You see? This is what I have to deal with,” she rolled her eyes, looking at Persephone. Then, she pulled out a massive muffin out of her backpack, and handed it to me.
“You’re lucky I love you,” she said.
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2020.10.18 22:50 MountainResponse7483 Do You Like Brahms [Ep. 15 & 16 - Finale]

Drama: Do You Like Brahms?
Network: SBS
Premier Date: August 31st, 2020
Airing Schedule: Monday & Tuesday @ 22:00 KST
Number of Episodes: 16
Director: Jo Young Min
Writer: Ryu Bo Ri
Cast: Kim Min Jae as Park Jun Young, Park Eun Bin as Chae Song Ah, Kim Sung Cheol as Han Hyun Ho, Park Ji Hyun as Lee Jung Kyung, Lee Yoo Jin as Yoon Dong Yoon, Bae Da Bin as Kim Min Sung
Streaming Sources: Viki Kocowa
Plot Synopsis: “Do You Like Brahms?” is a drama about students at a prestigious music school and the people in their lives. It will tell the stories of the students experiencing lessons, practicing, performing, and competitions since a very young age along with their parents and teachers who obsess over these processes. Park Joon Young, started playing piano when he was six years old. He won prominent competitions in the country before going on to win competitions across the world. Chae Song Ah, a college senior majoring in violin performance. After graduating previously as a business major, she entered the same university again to go to the music school after four attempts and is seven years older than her classmates.
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2020.10.18 18:00 discoskyline _i-sn6SNo0I

DRL the drone racing league twelve of the world's best fpv pilots battle each other across the longest most complex forces ever seen for maximum season points of world champion this is throw racing [Music] welcome to the 2019 DRL Allianz World Championship the premier international drone racing circuit and has been a wild ride this season with the most intense competition the sport has ever seen after six levels of racing several pilots differentiated themselves but none more than those of Vanover coming into the season all 12 pilots had the desire and hope if not expectation that they would become the world champion I want to win this year more than any other year because I know I can do it I've proven that I can consistently out fly everybody I just want to make it happen to be honest I don't really care about winning like one level I want to get to championship I'm not here to podium that's all great and definitely will feel good about it but I'm here with one goal in mind that's win this championship at each level only the podium finishers earn season points by four first two for second and one for third the pilot with the most points at the end of seven levels becomes the 2019 DRL Allianz world champion thanks for joining us we look back on levels one through six the season started in Miami Florida we're at Hard Rock Stadium home to the NFL's Miami Dolphins for level one our six finalists take their place in the cockpit where they'll race six regular heats to qualify for the winner-take-all golde haters included in this group is nurtured in green the defending 2018 TRL world champion the biggest perk that I have of being world champion in the offseason was throwing out the first pitch for a Diamondbacks game at Chase Field in Phoenix Arizona this is crazy to be in front of a 10,000 people and threw a strike so I can't complain also in this group are jet and gab who have had the most storied rivalry in DRL the semis gab and I were neck-and-neck and that was honestly to be expected this field also has a new face 19 year old rookie band over I can't believe I'm really sitting like next to you guys this sounds so cheesy but like watching it on the show from third person and then sitting here and like looking left and like seeing the backdrop and everything is like freaking me out right now it's awesome it's gonna be fun this is so cool my it's super weird though hello everybody I'm Craig Hummer here alongside drone racing pilot Tony Knittle Tony Vancouver sounds like a fanboy but look where he's city handovers in the first seat which means he's the top seat coming out of the semi-finals he won an extraordinary five heats in a row and over would continue that streak winning the first three heats of the finals it is ban over in the flashing drone trying to go three for three in this final and he dies three for three baby two-time world champion jet one heat for [Music] [Applause] then it was time for heat five the next heat will be very interesting we know Vanover constraint wins together but can he recover from a loss and win again regression to the mean and tell myself right now I want to push but I'm just saying I keep doing my thing tech ops are almost finished prepping the drones for the next race we know fan / and jet are in the gold heat but there are only two heats left in these finals which means only two more chances for the other pilots finals by they all head down the main floor to the square game we heard some contact on the ground rotating into the helix five man over in the lead jet red and second these guys are pushing it so hard that's why you're skipping the ground that guy laid back to the tiny bit Vanover in the flashing drone she's up and over into the stadium dive dab in yellow pushing jet for that second place jab doing a great job taking the inside line that's why he was able to catch up there the top three through the dangerous watch date back to the main floor Vanover jab and check in a chuckle that's the first time we've really seen him off his line that gets jetan red the opportunity followed by gavin yellow a great job by man over a game composure and hold on while he made that mistake final lap jet through the diamond game up and over leading as they go into the stadium bag but banned overs come back Shetty first Vanover at second the dangerous watch meet again then the over stakes can be had here some more contact you can hear it but that doesn't affect chef he's looking for a second win this is the run and the fight per second was legitimate too close to call but remember the wind is what matters and jet wins for the second time dude we were way too much throttle we all bought like slowly sinking oh it's getting close in close we are maxing these rigs out yeah I was full throttle and it just I hit the ground like and over he did that dodo that was good Vanover led from the start until his first real mistakes of these finals jet got close its first swatched feet but Vanover held him off until the very end of lap 1 when he overcorrected through the gate and hit the floor he did a great job saving it but fell to third behind jet gap jet held the leaps to rest of the way in while cabin Vanover had an epic dogfight for second Vanover gap in the helix climb then pulled away in the stadium dive gab caught man over at the swatch gate and the two were neck and neck all the way in with gaff taking second by half a drone lane [Music] the Racing's there we got a lot of challenge this is what we want this is why we're here this is the only place you're gonna get fish Racing gap set er L is the only place they get this kind of racing absolutely TRL's proprietary technology allows for the longest most diverse courses have ever seen and more importantly their spec racing with the racer for DRL redesigned this drone from the ground up and built over 500 for this event they perform identically which levels the playing field and means the only difference is how each pilot flies racer 4 is TRL's next generation drum it's a professional high-end racing machine made for a global sport hoods already rather the rest it's made for competition today [Music] the racer four is the most special racing drones that has ever been developed it's super unique no one has built a drone like this that looks this good and goes this fast we want a drone that's going to inspire the world and excite them something that you can follow at home something that's high performance something that looks beautiful to be as amazing as it can be the race of four has lots of new technology in it that the last racers didn't have there are a lot more powerful easier to fly more spectacular to see it has a thousand LEDs on it high voltage power train it has a gigantic battery to fly far away and a very advanced radio system they're all identical it's this even playing field I think that's part of what makes great racing everyone's why exactly the same specs so it makes it 100% about the body which pilot is the most scale which pilot actually the best performer and that's exciting racer the best pilots on the edge of what's possible racer four is the manifestation of that gab 77 people on to win the final regular heat of racing setting up a three pilot showdown in the winner-take-all going it's finals go 803 up van over in that pole position platform he should be first to the square of Dayton in the helix fight he is she can't miss the flashy drone Jenna red in second gap off to a rough start skipping the ground that's gonna get in his head just a little bit he said hip hop fitness for taped all scenario you've got in front first time through the dangerous watch game makeovers through Jen's Roo we heard some contact though been over back to the main floor he's in front jet in second in the red everyone still up as we start left to Vanover just a little faster than these guys through these turns he's got it dialed the rest needs a styled airline in Vanover trying to put the puzzle chat with contact he looked to be down that's more space for Vanover into the stadium dive damn right they're trying to stay close vinegars got one more time through the swatch gate [Music] as well say hello to the future it has a ride in the form of a 19 year old from Texas well duh oh man I tried to cut the helix too tight can I like lay down yeah that first lap I was full sent it over led from the start but all three were in contention until the second helix climb Jets approach was good but he simply didn't pitch down and up at the top of the climb hitting the gate and taking himself out gap flew a great race but fell just 4/10 of a second short gap beat the previous course record by half a second but Vanover flew the race of his life gap got close reentering the main floor on the sprint to the finish but Vanover was too quick destroying his previous course record by nearly a full second Vanover after the golden heat you secured the win and you said I did it we know that you won the level but what does it mean to you it means everything to me I'm doing this for my dad he's watching up in heaven he he's a champion and this is just the first step to getting there and I'm really just so great grateful so blessed to be here for me this is 10 years flying anything RC and even more flying drone racing and to be on TRL again is incredible and to pull off the win it's just something I've been wanting to do ever since I watched the first year I'll race ever that broadcasted I wanted to to be in that position I want to feel that energy and I wanted to to prove to myself that all the hard work I put into here was worth something and to do it is just it's amazing so the rookie proved he was legit and over dab and jet stood on the first podium of the year turning five two and one season points respectively Vanover would get his second chance for more season points at level two Hard Rock Stadium a second event of the doubleheader the drone racing league brought to you by Allianz global leaders in asset management investments and insurance by the US Air Force aim high and by swatch welcome back to our review of the first six levels of the 2019 DRL Allianz World Championship season we're in Miami Florida for the finals of level 2 our Rock Stadium five of our six pilots enter the arena with the goal of redeeming disappointment from level one the 19 year old rookie ban over who made history winning his first PRL event CPUC I don't really feel the pressure of being a rookie your youngest pilot in a way though I do feel the pressure to do well because I have a reputation especially winning level one so now it's time to go show people that it wasn't a fluke these pilots are the six best from the level two semi-finals Toki what a field we have here absolutely as you said Vanover is coming off the tremendous level one win newark nub and gab finished one-two-three at the 2018 World Championship these guys all know what it takes to win big races to win level 2 would be redemption for not doing as well as I wanted in level 1 I'd love to get into that golden heat to battle it out to lay it all on the line I'm very relieved to be in the finals somehow the pressure is higher this year I don't know everyone's been practicing very hard and everyone's really fast in the 2018 season as a rookie the fact that I was able to come out and put myself up and put myself above the other veterans was a really proud moment for me each heat is two laps in and around the stadium each lap starts with a long straightaway into the critical helix climb it's another long straight to the dramatic stadium dive next is the ascent through the inimical swatch game and back to the main floor for the end of the lap more sprint to the finish level once winner ran over one the first heat but then got beat by nub inherent and each two and three each securing a spot in the winner-take-all golde heat Tony - very distinct camps you've got the three pilots that are in and of course the three pilots that have struggled in are down to their last chance yeah these guys have only one key and what they really need to do right now is hit the reset switch to get out of that mind space that they're in to get their composure back to win a race we're down to the last regular heat before the golden heat finals heat six [Music] they all know how to do this so dramatic run to the square gate up in the hill it's fun you're King breed right there you got bent over and gaps episode and contact get gap benefit he's out in front he needs this win gap 707 through the diamond gate up and over into the stadium dive loosely followed by the flashing throw to banner these three are staying close no one's letting up gab 707 makes it cleanly through all the top three are cleanly through back to the main floor gap 707 in yellow still in front staff 707 student great job holding on to the front but he needs to find a way to create some distance out of these three gaps 707 in yellow is the only one that needs this win to assure himself was spotting the golden heat and he's doing everything he can he's gotta press on this next turn Vanover coming in trying to put the pressure on he's going [Applause] I am this swatch game will determine it all since he's out vandals ritenour oh and dirt goes down nineteen-year-old wonderkid tiny boys Stasi Newark finishes in six go to let's go to heat now ready for the golden heat back Vanover I've got one question two back-to-back heat wins going into the golden heat what does that do for your confidence it's where I want it to be it's not too high because I know that it was still a close heat the good news is the pilot gaps some of the seven who was the most worried about made a mistake and regardless I still would have had him on the pass so I feel better I know I can beat Newark I know I can beat Noah but I just need to do I did the last two heats and there's no chance they can beat me I'm just in my rhythm so as long as I launch good get out in front and just tell myself to fly my own race don't make any dumb mistakes I think it's mine short and concise Vanover short and concise yeah he talks too much maybe not all of the pilots are fans of the rookie sensation but love him or hate him they are all paying attention to him Vanover is kind of a new wild card I think he's got a few eyes on him at the amateur level he's very well known to be one of the fastest out there I have to give him respect because he has a lot of dedication he gets out he puts in the time and he trains like no other I know personally that I can be a these pilots out here on any of these tracks any quad doesn't matter any radio goggles I just need to focus on what I needed you personally told everything else out and go win but at the same time he is very arrogant and I don't appreciate that Vani Vani Vani Vani the bigmouth brat I see an insecure little boy with Vani he wants reassurance from the rest of the guys I grew up in the south where you have to be humble and he doesn't seem to feel that way we are getting ready for the winner-take-all golden eat started with six pilots and work down to three Newark Vanover and up the winner of this next team will be the level two champ earning a critical five season points in his quest to become the 2019 DRL Allianz world champion Vanover in the flashing disco drone nub in purple and Newark in green finals expected to pay off it'll be the square gate and then the heel expired van over and for eight launched by turf to keep it close - pilots nerf chasing dirt closing the gap this is for the level to win the swatch game for the first time up and thrill every close pressing the base no stand over keeps the lead but just barely pressing Vanover is not used to be fast [Applause] on the table over a little turn but sandover's not letting him get away [Applause] yeah Newark a nail-biter of a golden heat what does it mean to you to take this level win it's I mean it's it's redemption from level one that's for sure it's a continuation of last season it's it's it's a little bit more confirmation that I'm where I need to be that I can hang with the best in the world and come out here and get a get a course win early in the season I'm super psyched about that after two levels the rookie fan over sits on top with seven season points Newark since second but five gap is in third with two while jet nub each have one after Miami everyone headed to the Twin Cities of Minnesota for levels three and four they're a very different track presented unique opportunities and challenges for the pilots our look back on the 2019 season continues this is DRL the throw racing league [Music] [Music] welcome back to our review of the DRL Allianz World Championship season the brand new dazzling Allianz Field is our host for level 3 twin cities the top six pilots out of the semis now take their place in the cockpit where they'll race 7 heats around the stadium each eat here at Allianz Field is two laps with two critical switchbacks and the sky gates course is absolutely amazing out of all the drone courses I've flown over the last few years it's the best track of our flock it's a little bit of a mix it's wide open where it needs to be and then it's got spots where every single pilot is trying to take a different line figure out what's faster we have made it to the golden heat of the level 3 finals three pilots are here and now it is winner-take-all we started with six pilots now fan over Gavin Duncan remain to race one heat to determine the level champion it's the Battle of smooth versus raw it's the battle right now yeah but you don't want to be facing Duncan wings on fire all your guns I don't know that's scary the keys to victory Tony let's just go down the line let's start with Vanover what does he have to do that over has proven that when he flies his race from start to finish he wins so what he has to do is make sure that when the tone sound he's completely ready no other thoughts about winning or celebrating let's switch to gap what are his keys gap needs peak performance gap is the most consistent pilot at 98% he needs to push it to a hundred percent with flawless execution and I feel like our third and final pilot is definitely the wild card Duncan absolutely he's proven that he's the fastest on this course here and no one's gonna take that away from him so if he could do that now when it counts to the boat he'll get that win finals and over from the first podium but it's gap first number one man over in gamut of light jumping right there as well this is the first switchback man over with that traditional straight line has given him a slightly look at these do they're that big bag Gavin Duncan right there Vanover Gavin yellow Duncan and white in third the concourse the fastest murder to lose up to the sky gates this is Duncan's favorite spot it's still banned over in front along the western run they'll drop down once again to the swatch deep in or still maintains that position [Applause] so this cap cap gone up already making the push along the top course no you take it I think so I don't know I couldn't see I think I wonder you take it I never saw anyone in front yeah yeah good he took it you took it all yeah good job Annie yeah level three and he is able to put his stamp on this level Duncan's body in one but it wasn't the case Wow motional when you race I'm like did he somehow beat me I was like all right you want to talk about a close race giving fans exactly what they came for that was it in the final there oh no absolutely I had a great first lap I'm kind of known as in like level one I had an excellent first lap and I always kind of slowed down a bit a lot too I think that's just mentally me telling myself my heart starts beating it's like okay we're in front let's not mess up right and watching the replay I didn't realize how close gap got to me he made one mistake and that was it he probably would have beat me to that finish his line was looking really good but a nail-biter ever finished so much fun I love these guys so much because three different flying styles but three great pilots who are all pushing the limits what we can do out here well it's a lofty goal but right now you can celebrate another level win congratulations this one's also for my dad too we're getting there yeah we're going I was giving it everything I I could have just do close to that light pole tough luck I would have items' Vanover now has a significant lead in the season standings with 12 points nerf remains in second with five and gabon third with three Gavin Duncan fell short in level three but they would get another shot in the second event of the doubleheader at Allianz field level four next this is er L a drone racing lead [Music] welcome back to Allianz field here in st. Paul Minnesota we are down to our final regular heat in the finals of level 4 for pilots already in the gold key tour trying to earn their way there and one man has two wins that's fan over Vanover had a rough start here and we wondered if you'd be able to turn it around well he did great launches tight lines and no mistakes the last two heats let's go back to gap he was right behind Vanover last teeth but couldn't close out the win now that's become a theme for him for nearly two years gab has been the so close but not quite pilot since winning level two in 2017 he's finished on the podium eight times but never on the top step this is a dry spell he's burning to end you know life's unfair sometimes and it's one of the things that you know defines a bit who you are how I've performed in the last few seasons I know that I can consistently be faster than everybody I've just not been very lucky I'm not getting pushed down by it or anything I know it's how you can step up from that that really makes a decision on who you are and how things evolve for you I want to win because I know I can do it I have the ability to beat everybody so it's just a matter of keeping my training regiment going it's usually two parts of the training that have to come together for example when you go play a poker game you get your two cards at the start for me that's the amount of practice that I can do the more I practice the better my cards when I start the game but then once you're playing there's a bit of luck there's a bit of reading your opponent's see what they're gonna play if you need all those three parts to get there you need luck you need skill at the start and you need to make the right choices it's something that it's in my reach I just need to reach out and you know grab it gab is already in the gold heat a win here would give him a better start position freely and flexy it's win or go home finals eat six last chance were flexi inert metal this first gap right behind it we've seen this before in the switch that number one it starts with the swatch game Vanover with the cleanest line again to the square gate drops through the Pentagon game and on this respect number two you have inert looking for a chance to catch up but it's just not happening so far it's hard to catch up against the lead and a pilot like that Vanover through the sky game second he's going for it on the west run wow that was amazing but fan over passes right back look at this [Applause] - over the last time they were in this position can you do it again Vanover to the sky gate that dive through the finish Vanover get that gap second it is it sir you did yep good do you I was just right on you came that second lucky pasty good race and then you came up out of nowhere man heck yeah good race employs the regular heats of the level for finals have been completed we know there will be four pilots in the gold meet ban over gab 707 Duncan and Shaggy have one more heat to determine the level four champion was the pace on that no that was another record-setting heat he's not gonna have how many of those in a row no you just did three hours over the neuro four pilots the winner of this next heat is the level four champion Vanover starts on podium one gap 707 on podium for Duncan otome five shaggy six finals the other pilots have some real estate to make up against anima being over definitely versus already card is over [Music] [Applause] what an emotional win or gab 7:07 wait for that unforced error from Vanover and he capitalizes on that mistake holds on to the wind all the way through the drought is over gab you're known as one of the most consistent pilots in drone racing but the last level win for you was in 2017 level 2 atlanta aftermath how does it feel to be back on top you know I can't believe this you know I might just gratitude at this moment I can't you know thanks so much to everyone who's believed in me thanks and my girlfriend family it's been so long coming and people have been telling me you know you know you deserve this you got to get you got to get it and to finally make it I just can't why do you believe that you deserve it um I don't know two years ago I was leader in the season overtook me at the last possible moment and beat me last year I was feeling strong I had the course record on the track and the golden heat just went over in a snap like this and I know I have the speed I know I just need to keep it together and find the right formula for me I've worked actually really hard I found a new way of training I will admit and I think that was really really determining a factor for me tonight and that's huge on behalf of all your fans and us here at DRL we're all very proud of you and congratulations and we can't wait to see what's next thanks so much whoa an emotional win for gab that was two years in the making and bumps him up in the season standings after four levels Vanover remains in first with 13 points dabbe moves into second with 8 and Newark sits in third with five the TRL season heads to Phoenix Arizona and the largest crowd ever for a drone race level five Chase Field coming up this is TRL puts roam racing lead [Music] this is the URL Allianz World Championship welcome to Chase Field where we've turned an iconic baseball stadium into a high-speed three-dimensional racetrack we've made it to the gold needs at level five Chase Field four guys are in it no gap 707 Luxy and Vanover each heat is two half mile loops through port to gates position iein whoa Criss crossing the stadium and this course TK is a significant factor it truly is because it's so open the pilots need to focus on carrying momentum through the turn more than carving tight lines the smoothest pilots here will rise to the top the switchback has been a key differentiator here all night take us through this critical maneuver the switchback is a complex double u-turn requiring precise timing the goals are minimize distance flown while maximizing exit speed from each you turn the keys to the first u-turn are making a single turn while staying as close to the diamond gate as possible pilots pitch up slightly as they roll and yaw right they must time the turn so that they line up the diamond and square gates in a straight line the keys to the second u-turn are beginning to turn prior to the square gate and a peck seen as close to the gate as possible they pitch up slightly as they roll right with minimal yaw if they don't line up the two gates in the first u-turn they must make additional corrections which is slower if they don't begin the second u-turn early enough they extend their line path the square gate which is slower mistiming either turn causes them to hit the diamond gate or the square game if you want to win a level you need to first make the golden e and now we know our four pilots and their colors nuf in purple gap 707 yellow flux e the swatch pilot red and white and Vanover the flashing disco drum final [Music] winner-take-all fantastic start from Doug he's got climbing to the sky gate gab and fan over chasing him look at these guys ducks in a row Craig not doing a great job keeping in that day though as he just wonderfully dropped down little switch back to the first time now I'll be able to accelerate out of the square gate but gap is keeping it blue there on the right side of the course around the right-field pole back to the Pentagon gate and the start of last number to sub in the lead these guys behind a bit of a bobble there goes down he's blows again gap has closed the distance to switch back yet again gaps running at a time there was a bump that drop snap back the sweeping left Oh [Applause] fantastic launch off the podium getting to the front of the group and not letting go a tiny bit knocks back the wind and sends a message of his own now first off congratulations on a tremendous accomplishment can you put it into words what does it mean to you it means everything getting these points getting real points up on the board it shows these other pilots that I have what it takes still to stand up there on the podium at the end of the season and come back for another year before now what was holding you back that you overcame on this level I think it was a combination of things I wasn't getting a ton of practice I was in my own head a lot I wasn't thinking very positive I was dwelling on all of these negative things it would happen to me during a race and this time I just let it all go and just kept on flying my race so how do you take that how do you bottle it up and use it for the future levels that we have in front of us it's just an extreme confidence boost I've shown the guys hey I'm here I'm staying and you're not getting rid of me well once again congratulations you earned every bit of it thank you the overall season standings are getting interesting Vanover misses his first podium of the year but remains on top with 13 points gab is now just three points back with 10 and with this win now moves into third with six level six here in Phoenix would give the pilots another shot at season points with huge implications in the world championship title race next the drone racing league brought to you by aliens global leaders in asset management investments and insurance by the US Air Force aim high and by swatch welcome back to our review of the first six levels of the 2019 TRL Allianz World Championship season getting set for Heat number four of our finals here at level six Phoenix fan overs one two heats he's at the gold meet that's why training for gap just won the last teeth joining Vanover in that gold deep well I'm not gonna lie not do a little stretch a little bit less stress there by yourself winning Heat no I I'll give you a bit of confidence you know right no way to get by yourself people don't like being my team so anything that just gave me more confidence knowing I can make that make up that time on you out of all people I stay the last one Gabon Vanover have really separated themselves from the others here tonight TK what are you seeing that they're doing better you know that's a good question I don't think it's one thing in particular more everything all of them know the track inside and out and the best line through each element but Vanover and gab are executing those lines almost perfectly for two laps when the others make even a small misstep at any turn they fall behind they're up and away the left turn to the Pentagon Kade Vanover with the hole shot through the watch be built slime bin over in front cap 707 and yellow and jet conserve that was an aggressive turn out of a swash beat by gathers like two different clothes that distance to the top and he's always great on this drop here he goes this is the switchback Vanover gab jet they exit but gab stay right there with it over that's usually where he flips a gap in get this ringing a little wide out of that switchback that slows it down over there see this watch me so climb again jab is going for it there he goes on the drop he excels here and it's proving it right there gab momentarily passing Dan over but the swing back again gap slightly in front [Applause] [Music] [Applause] thank God dang it I don't know how to catch you guys that's your bedtime or what yeah it's true good job good racin gab how fun is it for a pilot of your level to race at this level you know this is the stuff that we all dream about we all think when we go out on the field let's say we practice together we'll get it heat like that and then we go to the next one and then nothing happens again it's one of those you just get one of them but we just did two of them in a row so I think we got something going here it's time for the golden heat flux e's last-second victory heat six means he joins Vanover and gap the stakes are huge if Vanover wins this heat he will have enough season points to clinch the world championship title if gabber flux ii win the entire season podium frame he determined in level seven all three away game over first to the Pentagon cave he'll be first to the slicing oh yeah kiss the swatch gate and is done fan over through the sky gate luck she's gonna have to play catch-up now into the switchback set up van over this is one of those maneuvers confidence in every heat well flux he's in a bad position here he's got to play catch up but that's not good for him if he could do this on every single one of these turns and changes a little bit of ground he can have his fighting chance he needs to figure it out remember these guys know each other's flying very well it was camped ban over weeks ago where they were together spending hours upon hours each other's tricks in treats but you have to believe but over the lightness [Music] unbelievable one little mistake like that costume give that to van over the crown has been passed all hail band over the season is his captain VIN over finally some smiles but also a lot of emotion that we saw just now what does it mean to be not just the level champion but now the world champion of the 2019 season I'm doing this for my dad and I love you that like this is for you you were a world champion and you inspired me it's this is this is for him this is for you he's watching up in heaven and my lord and everything just the support and everything this is hopefully the first of many but for me right now this is just probably the best one in my entire life I feel like I've I've served a purpose that I maybe can't grasp just yet but I hope these guys see it and I really hope that they see the motivation the passion in my faith and everything behind the scenes because that's also why I'm here I'm here to serve Him and not to serve myself or other people it's incredible you've racked up quite a trophy case here in your rookie season looking back at what you've accomplished what are you most proud of just my improvement in my dedication I've really focused so hard on this season trying to be the best pilot and that was it and just trying to not just be the best pilot for myself and my Lord and my dad who I'm serving but to show all these other guys that hard work and show everyone at home I was I wanted to be on D role and I put in the work to be here and then they get to world champion you can do it yourself that's what I'm here to show and that's my biggest proud moment is that anyone can do it it doesn't matter what obstacles what people call crazy that's great because I want to prove crazy to be right and that's just incredible it's so much to take in right now on behalf of the fans congratulations let's go to the overall season standings Vanover with that win now has a seven-point lead over gab 707 which means he has clinched the season win Vanover is your 2019 world champion
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2020.10.18 02:30 Predator512 Welcome to John's delivery service!

Hello new employee! Welcome to John's delivery! Here at John's we deliver many things from snacks and food to cosmetic items for customers! Here are the rules for being in the warehouse and some regulars you might encounter
  1. Never be in the warehouse for more than 50 minutes, you have been given a layout of the warehouse to know where everything is.
  2. Don't go into the room in the back left corner of the warehouse
  3. Never take any items off the top racks, those items can be found elsewhere in the lower sections
  4. You may encounter a shadow like figure roaming around the warehouse, dont worry that's Steve. Hes a regular who comes here instead of ordering most of the time. Hes a very kind gentleman and will appreciate any conversations
  5. However if you encounter a shadow like figure who just stands around leave the warehouse, you'll know the difference because steve will always be walking
  6. Leave any expired items in the bin on the right side of the warehouse and regularly check expiration dates, do not leave expired items on the racks
Now that you've heard our rules for the warehouse we'll get to the rules for delivering and some regulars you'll encounter
  1. While driving down heavily wooded areas it's best to not look into the trees to your left or right
  2. Check the trunk of your car before going to deliver, if its empty your fine if theres a single stick there remove it and you should be fine
  3. Always check the tires before you leave and you've been provided with gorilla tape and an air pump, our past employees have reported having their tires randomly appear punctured when driving through wooded areas. You've also been provided with a small can of pepper spray incase anything might happen
And here are some of our regulars
  1. Old man Herbert- herbert is one of our only normal regulars, he just usually wants a few snacks no rules are really required
  2. The Twins- two twins that will always order a few bags of cosmetic items, do not mess up this order. Additionally if only one twin answers this is not them,throw the bag at them and run back to your car, both twins always answer together, don't make direct eye contact with either of them
  3. Steve- now while you may have become acquainted with Steve he may simply order from what he calls his home, the GPS will malfunction and direct you torwards a White House when you finally get near to his location,do not go there and instead take a left into the woods and walk until you reach a clearing, steve will be there waiting. Again he is still very kind and friendly even if you mess up his order and will still appreciate any conversations
  4. The man with no eyes- if you get this man decline immediately and do not deliver to him, any employee that has taken the order has not come back, his picture will be displayed as a head with empty eye sockets.
  5. Martha- Martha seems like a kind elderly woman but she might invite you in for tea or something else, dont go in and just carry out the delivery like normal
  6. 637194- you may receive an order from a user called 637194 and the picture will be an old decayed house with a number of 637194, take the order to the house and leave it on the porch and then go back to your car and leave immediately do not try to enter the house at all
  7. ₩€¥€₩}}¥- it Is extremely unlikely you'll get an order with this name. The picture will be a plain black color with no description on what to bring and no location will come up either. If you unfortunately get an order from here the best thing to do is quit and move states, it has chosen you and won't let you go until you leave and it will cause permanent injury or death if you remain in the state
And that is all the rules for working at John's delivery! Reminder that Johns is not responsible for loss of property, injury to property or person or death of person, if you have complaints speak to me and we will sort everything out, enjoy your time here and we welcome you to our team!
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2020.10.16 00:22 BeforeItWasLame FNO for allegedly littering in city centre

Hello LAUK,
This happened in England, though I live in Scotland.
This weekend I visited friends in an English city. I’m minding my own business when my nose is runny, I am walking thru the centre of this city and I take out a tissue from my sealed little tissue bag and blow my nose. Unknown to me, a man dressed all in black approaches me and accuses me of dropping tissues. I am certain I didn’t drop any as I’ve done this many times before. I take a tissue, seal my little tissue packet with the sticky seal and put it back in my bag.
A second man in black approaches and they immediately accuse me of littering, I have no idea who these people are, they very poorly inform me they are environment officers employed by the council and that I have allegedly committed an offence. They ask for my personal details and I refuse. After all, who gives out their details to strange people? After refusal, they tell me that refusal to provide details is also an offence and the police would be contacted. Since I have committed no offence I welcome this to clear up the issue. I ask them to show me the tissues and clear as day, there are two tissues on the ground. This is the centre of town, there are cigarette butts, empty tissue packets, masks, and surprise, it’s a pandemic. Tissues are purchased a lot.
The tissues are soiled, stepped on and clearly old and I continually refuse these are mine but pick up the tissues that are not mine and bin them out of principal (in a bin no less than 10feet away, so why would I litter?). I am not from the city, I don’t know who these men are or the company that they work for or even if they are allowed to enforce the law. They harass me and I tell them I want to speak to an officer of the law. So I leave to find officers with them in tow, informing me they would follow me until I gave up my details. I find two officers who tell me that this is indeed the case. The two men admit they do not have video evidence of me dropping the tissues and only one of them says he saw me did it (I have this recorded on their body cam) and it is simply their word against mine, there are no witnesses, no CCTV footage that they can show me and no evidence that the tissues are in fact, mine.
I speak to the two police officers after who tell me this is a common occurrence with people in the city and so it is evident these people look for easy targets. The police officer also said, that IF I had accidentally dropped something without noticing, he would alert me and simply ask I pick it up. Which, as a decent citizen, I would comply. After all, accidents do sometimes happen. Though the law in England simply says that a soon as an object touches the ground, though accident or not, this is an offence of littering.
I am issued with a fixed penalty notice of £150. A great first day in England. Now, I have emailed the company to dispute the FPN, I have emailed the council to complain and also requested a freedom of information act on two CCTV cameras that are in the area that do not properly cover the area but may show that The tissues were there before me walking past. I have called CAB, called a debt advice company who advised me that to dispute, I have to request a court date.
I simply think this is a wrong place, wrong time situation and these 3rd party employees are seeing an easy target and intimidating me to pay £150 which out of principal, I will not do. I do not litter, i never have, nor will.
  1. If I refuse to pay the FPN, will the magistrate court look at this?
  2. The men have no shred of evidence they can show me that I littered. How will their word against mine hold up in court?
  3. How do I submit a statement of events and can I gain access to their body cam footage?
  4. If this is taken to court, will I have to attend? (I live in Scotland)
  5. Is the onus on them to prove I allegedly committed the offence?
  6. How likely am I to be found guilty?
I understand £150 is not a lot of money, but I refuse to be intimidated into paying this for a crime I did not commit. I have had this happen before for fly-tipping and won, simply because they failed to produce evidence of me committing the alleged crime. (spoiler: because I didn’t)
TLDR; accused of littering, did not do so. Issued a FPN by third party environmental officers. How can I proceed/dispute to not pay this notice and prove my innocence?
Thanks in advance!
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2020.10.14 18:28 riotclit A history of Trisha’s relationship trauma and why Ethan needs to stop using it as a weapon against her

A little background to how she ended up on this path, her mother dated horrible men when Trisha was young, and married several of them. Trisha would be left alone with them while her mother struggled with multiple jobs because her father (who abandoned them to live in a different state) didn’t want to send proper financial support. Trisha then left home as a teen and moved to California where she began stripping and escorting while living alone in a shack of an apartment with no door handle. Trisha had two friends that took care of her. One passed by suicide when she was young and one passed by getting stuck in a clothing donation bin more recently. But onto the boyfriends...
Trisha’s first boyfriend when she was 18 was Anthony Michael Hall (the actor). This was her longest relationship, which is how he managed to give her chlamydia twice. She loved him though and stayed despite his cheating because he would consistently tell her he would marry her, and play abusive mind games with her for years. All Trisha wanted was a stable family life, and it was easy for her to be abused with the promise of one. Here’s one of her videos from that time https://youtu.be/jx46PWoAkvo and here’s proof of his abusive nature https://youtu.be/bAyWbbSnwvQ
Trisha finally got out of that relationship and then dated Roger Bart (yes, the actor) for a couple years. Again Trisha was wooed by an older man promising her a family dynamic, until she found out that SHE is the other woman. Roger had a live in girlfriend the whole time he was promising that to Trisha. Here’s the video on that https://youtu.be/fwhifGYsfXk
Trisha swore off older famous men and began to date her backup dancer, Sean Vanderwilt. Finally she was happy, they created content together regularly and it seemed like Trisha finally broke the cycle of abuse! Until someone sent her a Snapchat of Sean at a club, dancing and kissing a man. Trisha went nuclear, and while she shouldn’t have outted him, she was understandably having a mental breakdown realizing that even the age appropriate non famous men would abuse her trust. Here’s that video https://youtu.be/D0X7Gg-635E
Now we get to Jason Nash. I understand that he has a lot of fans, and people aren’t going to be able to easily dissect the criticism. But Jason Nash used Trisha for views, didn’t respect her boundaries, and continued to string her along knowing he would never have a family with her. Trisha constantly told him what she wanted from a relationship, and he would give in a little bit and then pull back a lot. He would keep her right where he wanted her, so that he could get all the content he needed for his channel (even going so far to post videos to HIS channel with titles like “our relationship is on the rocks”). She asked him not to make jokes about their relationship, and he continued for that David money. She eventually had a mental breakdown and he had the audacity to show up to the hospital with David Dobrik and a camera. What kind of person brings a camera into a hospital? Trisha should have left, but Jason shouldn’t have given her hope. Because he knew she wouldn’t leave if there was even 1% of hope for the relationship. Here’s that one https://youtu.be/yXfHsEhSO0I
Now we’re at Moses. Moses seems like an honest person who won’t abuse Trisha. She’s not used to that and she has a hard time convincing herself of it. Now we have Ethan in her ear constantly saying that the relationship won’t work, and even saying that Moses has commitment issues, implying he’ll leave her eventually. It is obviously and understandably extremely triggering for Trisha. Anyone with any humanity can see how she get triggered when Ethan constantly belittles or criticizes her relationship with Moses. But he continues, similarly to the way Jason did, for the money it’s making him. He needs to stop.
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2020.10.12 19:45 Seagull_No1_Fanboy OWL 2021 Off-Season Tracker

Player Position Old Team New Team Signing/Trade Details
Niclas "sHockWave" Jensen Flex DPS Titans ??? Reported F/A 9/7/F/A 10/21
Jason "Jaru" White Flex DPS Gladiators --- F/A 10/6/Retired 10/24
Jonas "Shaz" Suovaara Flex Support Gladiators --- F/A 10/6/Retired 10/23
Benjamin "BigG00se" Isohanni Main Support Gladiators --- Retired 10/6
Hyung-seok "Bischu" Kim Flex Tank Gladiators --- Retired 10/6
Benjamin "uNKOE" Chevasson Flex Support Fuel --- Retired 10/6
Michael "mikeyy" Konicki Main Tank Uprising ??? F/A 10/8
Kobe "Halo" Hamand Main Support Uprising ??? F/A 10/8
Isaac "Boombox" Charles Flex Support Fusion ??? F/A 10/12
Roni "LhCloudy" Tiihonen Main Tank Gladiators ??? F/A 10/12
Jun-soo "Kris" Choi Main Support Mayhem ??? F/A 10/14
San-ha "Karayan" Choi Main Tank Mayhem ??? F/A 10/14
Seong-ju "Byrem" Lee Flex Support Mayhem ??? F/A 10/14
Jung-woo "Sayaplayer" Ha Hitscan DPS Mayhem --- Retired 10/14
Austin "Muma" Wilmot Main Tank Outlaws ??? F/A 10/14
Jiri "LiNkzr" Masalin Hitscan DPS Outlaws ??? F/A 10/14
Jeffrey "blasé" Tsang Flex DPS Outlaws ??? F/A 10/14
Seung-soo "Jecse" Lee Main Support Outlaws ??? F/A 10/14
Gun-hee "Clestyn" Cho Flex Tank Spitfire ??? F/A 10/15
Hyun-wook "ALTHOUGH" Jung Flex DPS Spitfire ??? F/A 10/15
Sang-jun "Babel" Park Hitscan DPS Spitfire ??? F/A 10/15
Sung-hyeok "Highly" Lee Flex Support Spitfire ??? F/A 10/15
Dong-jae "Schwi" Lee Flex DPS Spitfire ??? F/A 10/15
Ji-hun "Jihun" Kim Main Tank Spitfire --- F/A 10/15/Retired 10/26
Young-hoon "Krillin" Jeong Flex Support Spitfire ??? F/A 10/15
Dante "Danteh" Cruz Flex DPS Outlaws Outlaws F/A 10/15/Signed 10/27
Alberto "neptuNo" González Main Support Charge ??? F/A 10/15
Jung-yeon "Chara" Kim Main Support Charge ??? F/A 10/15
Shao-Hua "ATing" Chen Main Tank Hunters --- Retired 10/15
Tzu-heng "Baconjack" Lo Hitscan DPS Hunters --- Retired 10/15
Haomiao "Wya" Qi Flex Support Charge ??? F/A 10/16
Shilong "Krystal" Cai Hitscan DPS Charge ??? F/A 10/16
Tae-hong "MekO" Kim Flex Tank Outlaws ??? F/A 10/16
Min-seok "OGE" Son Main Tank Gladiators ??? F/A 10/16
Dusttin "Dogman" Bowerman Flex Support Reign ??? F/A 10/16
Stefan "Onigod" Fiskerstrand Hitscan DPS Fuel ??? F/A 10/16
William "Crimzo" Hernandez Flex Support Fuel ??? F/A 10/16
Nolan "Paintbrush" Edwards Main Support Fuel ??? F/A 10/16
Alhumaidi "KSAA" Alruwaili Flex Tank Titans ??? F/A 10/16
Carson "CarCar" First Main Support Titans ??? F/A 10/16
Samir "Tsuna" Ikram Hitscan DPS Titans ??? F/A 10/16
Lucas "NotE" Meissner Flex Tank Fuel ??? F/A 10/16
Nathan "frd" Goebel Flex Tank Reign ??? F/A 10/16
Ashley "Trill" Powell Main Tank Fuel --- Retired 10/16
Damon "Apply" Conti Flex DPS Valiant ??? F/A 10/16
Caleb "McGravy" McGarvey Flex Tank Valiant ??? F/A 10/16
Rick "GiG" Salazar Main Tank Valiant ??? F/A 10/16
Won-sik "Closer" Jung Main Support Fuel ??? F/A 10/16
Anthony "Fire" King Main Support Reign ??? F/A 10/16
Hyun-jun "Pokpo" Park Main Tank Reign ??? F/A 10/17
Dae-han "JMAC" Choi Main Tank Spitfire ??? F/A 10/17
Josh "Eqo" Corona Flex DPS Fusion ??? F/A 10/17
Charlie "nero" Zwarg Flex DPS Charge ??? F/A 10/17
Young-jin "Gamsu" Noh Main Tank Fuel --- Retired 10/17
Dylan "aKm" Bignet Hitscan DPS Fuel --- Retired 10/17
Gi-hyeon "Ado" Chon Flex DPS Spark ??? F/A 10/18
Jae-hwan "Adora" Kang Flex DPS Spark ??? F/A 10/18
Hui-chang "BeBe" Yoon Flex Support Spark ??? F/A 10/18
Sang-hyeon "SASIN" Song Flex Tank Spark ??? F/A 10/18
Seong-wook "Ria" Park Flex Tank Spark ??? F/A 10/18
Hyo-jong "Haksal" Kim Flex DPS Excelsior --- Retired 10/20
Yeon-kwan "Nenne" Jeong Hitscan DPS Excelsior ??? F/A 10/21
Seung-jun "WhoRU" Lee Flex DPS Excelsior ??? F/A 10/21
Dong-wook "BiaNcA" Kim Flex Tank Excelsior ??? F/A 10/21
Hong-joon "HOTBA" Choi Flex Tank Excelsior ??? F/A 10/21
Joon "Erster" Jeong Flex DPS Reign ??? F/A 10/21
Garrett "Saucy" Roland Hitscan DPS Reign ??? F/A 10/21
Chen "Lengsa" Jingyi Main Support Hunters ??? F/A 10/21
Sang-bum "BQB" Lee Flex DPS Mayhem ??? F/A 10/21
Beom-jun "Gargoyle" Lee Flex Tank Mayhem ??? F/A 10/21
Jung-woo "Happy" Lee Hitscan DPS Charge ??? F/A 10/21
Jin-seo "Shu" Kim Flex Support Charge ??? F/A 10/21
Haomiao "Wya" Qi Flex Support Charge ??? F/A 10/21
Jung-keun "Rapel" Kim Flex Support Outlaws Fuel F/A 10/21/Signed 10/27
Daniel "Boink" Pence Main Support Outlaws ??? F/A 10/21
Da-un "NoSmite" Jeong Main Tank Eternal ??? F/A 10/21
Eoghan "Smex" O'Neill Flex Tank Eternal ??? F/A 10/21
Joon "Fielder" Kwon Flex Support Eternal Fuel F/A 10/21/Signed 10/27
Philip "ChipSa" Graham Flex DPS Fusion ??? F/A 10/21
Seung-hyun "Ivy" Lee Flex DPS Fusion ??? F/A 10/21
Jun-ho "Fury" Kim Flex Tank Fusion ??? F/A 10/21
Dong-jun "Rascal" Kim Flex DPS Shock ??? F/A 10/21
Matthew "super" DeLisi Main Tank Shock ??? F/A 10/21
Grant "moth" Espe Main Support Shock ??? F/A 10/21
Minki "Viol2t" Park Flex Support Shock ??? F/A 10/21
Hyeon-woo "Toyou" Lim Flex Tank Dynasty ??? F/A 10/21
Seung-tae "Bdosin" Choi Flex Support Dynasty ??? F/A 10/21
Sung-jun "SLIME" Kim Main Support Dynasty ??? F/A 10/21
Jin-mo "tobi" Yang Main Support Dynasty ??? F/A 10/21
Jin-hyeok "DDing" Yang Flex DPS Dragons ??? F/A 10/21
Min-seong "diem" Bae Hitscan DPS Dragons ??? F/A 10/21
Weida "Diya" Lu Hitscan DPS Dragons ??? F/A 10/21
Se-yeon "Geguri" Kim Flex Tank Dragons ??? F/A 10/21
Seong-hyeon "Luffy" Yang Flex Support Dragons ??? F/A 10/21
Brady "Agilities" Girardi Flex DPS Defiant ??? F/A 10/21
Andreas "Logix" Berghmans Hitscan DPS Defiant Defiant F/A 10/21/Signed 10/23
Liam "Mangachu" Campbell Flex DPS Defiant ??? F/A 10/21
Lane "Surefour" Roberts Flex DPS Defiant ??? F/A 10/21
Thomas "zYKK" Hosono Flex DPS Defiant ??? F/A 10/21
Adam "Beast" Denton Main Tank Defiant ??? F/A 10/21
Andreas "Nevix" Karlsson Flex Tank Defiant ??? F/A 10/21
Seb "numlocked" Barton Main Tank Defiant ??? F/A 10/21
Young-seo "KariV" Park Flex Support Defiant ??? F/A 10/21
Harrison "Kruise" Pond Main Support Defiant ??? F/A 10/21
Joo-seong "RoKy" Park Main Support Defiant ??? F/A 10/21
Gui-un "Decay" Jang Flex DPS Justice Justice F/A 10/21/Signed 10/24
Chung-hee "Stitch" Lee Hitscan DPS Justice ??? F/A 10/21
Hyeon-Woo "JJANU" Choi Flex Tank Justice ??? F/A 10/21
Min-seok "AimGod" Kwon Flex Support Justice ??? F/A 10/21
Yeon-joon "ArK" Hong Main Support Justice ??? F/A 10/21
Zheng "Shy" Yangjie Hitscan DPS Bilibili Gaming Spark Signed 10/22
Chang-hoon "rOar" Gye Main Tank Justice ??? F/A 10/22
Yeong-han "SP9RK1E" Kim Flex DPS Eternal Fuel Traded 10/23
Han-been "Hanbin" Choi Flex Tank Eternal Fuel Traded 10/23
Tae-sung "Mag" Kim Main Tank Runaway Justice Signed 10/24

Coaching/Management Changes

Coach Position Old Team New Team Signing Details
David "Lilbow" Moschetto Interim HC Defiant ??? F/A 9/9
Murong "Chen" Chen HC Hunters ??? F/A 9/18
Guan "Garry" Li AC Hunters ??? F/A 9/18
Chang "Ray" Chia-Hua AC Hunters ??? F/A 9/18
Xingrui "RUI" Wang HC ??? Hunters Signed 9/18
Won-jin "Garrincha" Park AC Excelsior ??? F/A 9/19
Jake "Spackle" Connell Analyst Uprising ??? F/A 9/23
Rollon "Mini" Hamelin AC Uprising ??? F/A 9/23
Eric "Wheats" Perez AC Titans ??? F/A 9/25
Cheol-yong "Agape" Hong AC Spitfire Shock F/A 10/1/Signed 10/26
Young-bin "Twinkl" Lim AC Spitfire ??? F/A 10/1
Hyeon-sang "Pavane" Yu AC Spitfire --- F/A 10/1/Retired 10/26
Min-gyu "Vol'Jin" Kang AC Fuel ??? F/A 10/1
Hae-joon "Wiz" Lee AC Justice ??? F/A 10/2
Hyo-jin "J1N" Cho HC Charge ??? F/A 10/5
Seung-min "Tydolla" Jung AC Charge Gladiators F/A 10/5/Signed 10/27
Sung-woo "Sungwoo" Hong AC Charge ??? F/A 10/5
Vytis "Mineral" Lasaitis HC Uprising Uprising Transition to manager 10/5
Seung-hyun "Lori" Kim HC WGS Phoenix Uprising Signed 10/5
Rohit "CurryShot" Nathani AC Gladiators ??? F/A 10/8
Chris "Dream" Myrick AC Outlaws ??? F/A 10/14
Jae "Junkbuck" Choi AC Shock Outlaws F/A 10/15/Signed 10/15
Ho-cheol "Hocury" Lee AC Dynasty Justice F/A 10/15/Signed 10/27
Dong-eun "Hooreg" Lee AC Outlaws ??? F/A 10/16
Ji-won "Arachne" Lee HC Shock Charge F/A 10/16/Signed 10/28
Ysabel "Noukky" Müller GM Hurricane Spitfire Promoted to GM 10/16
James "Faustus" Frye AC Gladiators ??? F/A 10/16
Matt "coolmatt" Iorio GM Outlaws Outlaws Promoted to GM 10/19
Dong-gun "KDG" Kim HC Fusion Defiant F/A 10/21/Signed 10/24
Hee-won "RUSH" Yun HC Eternal Fuel Traded 10/23
Chung-hyeok "Levi" Jeong AC Eternal --- Retired 10/23
Jae-yoon "Aid" Go AC Eternal Fuel F/A 10/23/Signed 10/28
Bumhoon "NineK" Kim HC Eternal Fusion Signed 10/23
Dimitri "Silence" Couturet AC Reign --- Retired 10/24
Chung-in "Mentalist" Kim AC Reign ??? F/A 10/24
Steven "Kodak" Rosenberger AC Reign ??? F/A 10/24
Cas "Casores" van Andel AC Shock Shock Promoted to AC 10/26
Brenda Suh GM Gladiators Gladiators Promoted to GM 10/30

Abbreviations

  • F/A = Free Agent
  • HC = Head Coach
  • AC = Assistant Coach
  • GM = General Manager
  • * = Reported

2021 Player Contract Status

OWL's Offseason Player Tracker

OWL Key Dates

  • Oct. 10, 2020: Championship match concludes 2020 season schedule.
  • Oct. 12, 2020: Teams may begin submitting player trades for League Office review. All player trades are subject to League Office approval prior to becoming effective. Teams may also begin extending or otherwise signing their current players to standard contracts.
  • Oct. 16, 2020: Deadline by which teams must exercise any options to extend existing contracts which were initially executed in 2020.
  • Oct. 23, 2020: PSAs signed using the 2020 PSA template that are not extended terminate and such Players become free agents. Players who are signed using the 2020 PSA template whose contracts extend into the 2021 Season begin receiving Base Salary at the 2021 Season rate.
  • Oct. 24, 2020: Teams may begin signing free agents to contracts for the 2021 Season.
  • Nov. 13, 2020: Deadline by which teams must exercise any team options to extend existing contracts which were initially executed in 2019.
  • Nov. 20, 2020: Players whose contracts that are not extended become free agents. Teams and players also may mutually agree to an early release from contracts prior to this date.
  • Jan. 4, 2021: Deadline for all teams to have a minimum of seven players signed to season-long contracts for the 2021 season.
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2020.10.12 02:48 indiffman I feel like I should feel guilty after all this.

I stood up to my dad at the age of 18.
My dad wasn’t in my life till I was about the age of 5 due to us moving around and stuff, but it wasn’t like he didn’t want to be with my mom and I. However, one of the most prominent memories I have of him within the first few months of living with us is him pinning me on the ground, smacking me for not wanting to finish my breakfast, and then shoving the remainder of the scrambled eggs into my mouth, to which I spit out (not in a malicious kind of way, just because I really didn’t want to eat and I thought I’d choke) and that offended him so much and resulted in him becoming angrier. He took me out of all the activities I love to do that my mom happily had enrolled me in, because he finds them a waste of time. He made me focus on only my academics, and now I even suck at academics because my mental health is deteriorating living like this.
My dad is a narcissist. He was a specialist in a field of work overseas, but he has no will to study in the U.S. He has pinned his failure on my mom, claiming that her arguing resulted in him dropping out of school. This has been his excuse for about 8 years, if not more. Till today, he only talks about the past and how “we have destroyed him and his life.” He has such a bad temper, he’s impatient, illogical, and never blames himself. He also has depression, mood swings, and a bad childhood, but refuses to seek mental help. My parents both don’t believe in mental illnesses.
We live in a small apartment that looks like a cave because we have no space for our stuff. It’s so messy and although my mom and I are very organized and clean people, there’s physically no way to organize the clutter. I haven’t invited anyone over since 2nd grade because I’m so embarrassed of my home. The board underneath my bed is broken so parts of my bed are flat and parts are sunken, resulting in lack of sleep and back problems. My mom has severe back issues because she has worked so hard for years, and I feel so bad for her having to sleep on this piece of trash. I don’t have a wardrobe or anything so all my jewelry and my moms are in little boxes and plastic bins from target. My moms clothes are all in huge plastic bins. My closet doesn’t have a door. We have a wood loving roach infestation in the kitchen. We don’t have a couch in the living room, it’s just a bed that my dad sleeps on over there in front of the TV. And it’s not like we’re broke broke, he’s just financially irresponsible and whines and complains about not having money. He always says irritating shit like “when I win the lottery, I’m going to buy you guys the nicest house ever.” but it’s frustrating as to how delusional he is, and the fact that he never says something like “I’m going to work hard to get you guys a house” instead.
He always cusses at my mother and cusses out her family, and I love my mother so much because she truly is one of the strongest people I’ve met (not saying that just because she’s my mom) and I always comfort her and such, but recently I’ve been defending her. My dad always assumes I’m “picking sides” and stops talking to me for months on end whenever he argues with my mother. Then he pops into the bedroom I share with my mom, and makes silly faces and says shit like “you’re not still mad at me, are you?” And if you don’t accept this “apology” if I can even call it that lmfao, then he will cuss at you again and spit and throw his little fit and continue not to talk for weeks.
In the middle of the summer, my friends and I decided to take graduation pictures together. We ended up at a park, and my dad came to pick me up super late. The park was incredibly large. I hadn’t eaten all day. I was walking in hot uncomfortable shoes, my graduation gown, super dark and layered clothes, and I was so dehydrated. My phone was overheating while I was simply walking because the sun was just baking me lol. I asked my dad to come pick me up because I felt like I might faint and there were some sketchy areas of the park where people were in dark cars smoking weed, and my feet were on fire, but he said there’s a line of cars waiting to get into the park, so I should “just walk faster.” There was literally just a “line” of three cars going into the park. The three cars took no more than 50 seconds to get into the park. I found him just standing by the car on the street, smoking, lmao. He was upset that I had taken so long to walk across the big ass park. We fought in the car, and I absolutely HATE yelling when arguing because it’s simply not how I was raised and I’m a calm person when I’m angry, but he doesn’t respect or listen to you when you speak in a calm voice, so I had to resort to yelling. Quite childish, I know. I’ve never yelled at him before. I was screaming the whole ride home and told him how our life is ruined because of him, how we are thousands of dollars in debt because of him for no good reason (my mom too because he opens up credit cards in her name and takes out so many loans, resulting in her going into debt too), how he constantly blames my mom for not being able to study but he has no one to blame but himself, how we live in a shit hole, and I told him he makes me hate my life and I want to kill myself.
He told me I should just go ahead and do it. “So what? Kill yourself. It’d be your fault for doing it, and it doesn’t affect me. I won’t cry over you. It’d be just like the death of a stray dog.”
It really hurt me so much at the time considering the fact that I have depression and extreme anxiety, but we eventually made up. I wanted to forgive him because it’s part of my culture to respect the elderly and especially your parents. It’s also common to hit kids and stuff as a form of “raising” them.
My mom tells me I’ve become short tempered like my dad and that I’ve slowly become a loud mouth, which scares me because I don’t want to be like him. I want to get away. I think I’m so irritable and loud these days because I just have so much pain inside of me that I want to get out. I still have so much on my chest. Just so much pain and hurt. And it always increases when I see him treating my mom so badly. She’s soft spoken, like me, but I’ve recently been defending her “rudely” and telling him to stop talking like that to her. My mom and her side of the family have raised me so well and I love them so much and I would totally be a mess like my father if it wasn’t for them. My dad is so adamant that my mom and I get along with his sister, but every time we talk to her, something bad happens. Whenever we don’t talk to her there is peace and my dad is a completely different person, so it’s almost like she curses us or something LMAO. Idk. Anyways I have no interest in getting to know my dads side of the family because they only call for money, and they have bad tempers and they’re very judgmental people with nothing better to do than to gossip.
Anyways, I’ve had a bad cold this week and my dad was in an ok mood yesterday. However my mom was upset w him and he was trying to make up with her, which resulted in him jokingly cussing at her which really pissed me off. He was talking about how she ruined his life and made him quit studying, and I ended up defending her and yelling at him that he’s the only person responsible for what has happened to him. My dad always takes out loans for his family, but won’t take out loans to continue his education or to better me and my moms quality of life. I mentioned this and I always call my aunt on my dads side simply by her name rather than auntie ______, which set him off. I told him I’ll call her whatever I want because she has no interest in checking up on us simply out of love, but simply to get money. He hit me with those big 5 gallon bottles lmao. Then I locked the door and he put in another hole in the door, amassing to a total of 3 over the years. Admittedly, I did make the situation worse, but I was just so blind with rage yesterday and I don’t know why. I was just feeling so horrible and I’m just so stressed out by school, and I snapped.
Today he caused another big problem, and he cussed at us and called me a whore and a slut (when I’ve never dated lmAo) and told me I’ll end up on the streets some day desperate for money. He said other unkind things, and I didn’t speak up bc I don’t have the energy to do it anymore, and because my mom begged me not to argue and cause him to get even angrier.
My mom is currently unemployed, and she doesn’t have the best english. She has worked for years in a certain field, but it’s not enough to live on your own. We want to move out so badly but it just seems impossible. We have no family here, no money, nothing. I have a credit card so i can finally rent an apartment if I have to without worrying ab my moms ruined credit score, but I don’t make enough money to support us both. Idk what I’m doing. I just wish I could disappear lol. Idk how to succeed at college anymore living in this environment. I know no one will read this whole thing because it’s literally just a mess hahaha but I guess it’s just me putting my thoughts out there in fear that I’ll explode internally. I wish I had a normal loving father who fixes the sink and makes bad jokes and spends time with his wife. I wish I had a normal family and I wish my mom was happy. I wish I could fix so much, but I can’t. I just turned eighteen a few weeks ago, and I’ve never felt more useless or hopeless. There are some good days where I think “he’s my dad after all, maybe I should forgive him. It’s important to respect family. Everyone goes through hard times.” but I feel like the negative outweighs the positive, and it’s hard to live like this anymore.
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2020.10.12 02:17 MountainResponse7483 Do You Like Brahms? [Ep. 13 & 14]

Drama: Do You Like Brahms?
Network: SBS
Premier Date: August 31st, 2020
Airing Schedule: Monday & Tuesday @ 22:00 KST
Number of Episodes: 16
Director: Jo Young Min
Writer: Ryu Bo Ri
Cast: Kim Min Jae as Park Jun Young, Park Eun Bin as Chae Song Ah, Kim Sung Cheol as Han Hyun Ho, Park Ji Hyun as Lee Jung Kyung, Lee Yoo Jin as Yoon Dong Yoon, Bae Da Bin as Kim Min Sung
Streaming Sources: Viki Kocowa
Plot Synopsis: “Do You Like Brahms?” is a drama about students at a prestigious music school and the people in their lives. It will tell the stories of the students experiencing lessons, practicing, performing, and competitions since a very young age along with their parents and teachers who obsess over these processes. Park Joon Young, started playing piano when he was six years old. He won prominent competitions in the country before going on to win competitions across the world. Chae Song Ah, a college senior majoring in violin performance. After graduating previously as a business major, she entered the same university again to go to the music school after four attempts and is seven years older than her classmates.
Previous Discussions:
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2020.10.12 01:52 indiffman Am I turning into him?

I stood up to my dad at the age of 18.
My dad wasn’t in my life till I was about the age of 5 due to us moving around and stuff, but it wasn’t like he didn’t want to be with my mom and I. However, one of the memories I still remember of him from the first months of him living with us is him pinning me on the ground, smacking me for not wanting to finish my breakfast, and then shoving the remainder of the scrambled eggs into my mouth, to which I spit out (not in a malicious kind of way, just because I really didn’t want to eat and I thought I’d choke) and that resulted in him becoming angrier. He took me out of all the activities I love to do that my mom happily had enrolled me in, because he finds them a waste of time.
My dad is a narcissist. He was a specialist in a field of work overseas, but he has no will to study in the U.S. He has pinned his failure on my mom, claiming that her arguing resulted in him dropping out of school. This has been his excuse for about 8 years, if not more. Till today, he only talks about the past and how “we have destroyed him and his life.” He has such a bad temper, he’s impatient, illogical, and never blames himself. He also has depression, and mood swings and a bad childhood, but refuses to seek mental help. We live in a small apartment that looks like a cave because we have no space for our stuff. It’s so messy. I haven’t invited anyone over since 2nd grade because I’m so embarrassed of my home. The board underneath my bed is broken so parts of my bed are flat and parts are sunken, resulting in back issues and my mom has severe back issues and I feel so bad for her having to sleep on this piece of trash. I don’t have a wardrobe or anything so all my jewelry and my moms are in little boxes and plastic bins from target. My moms clothes are all in huge plastic bins. My closet doesn’t have a door. We have a bad wood loving roach infestation in the kitchen. We don’t have a couch in the living room, it’s just a bed that my dad sleeps on over there in front of the TV. And it’s not like we’re broke broke, he’s just financially irresponsible and whines and complains about not having money. He always says irritating shit like “when I win the lottery, I’m going to buy you guys the nicest house ever.” but it’s frustrating as to how delusional he is, and the fact that instead he never says something like “I’m going to work hard to get you guys a house.”
He always cusses at my mother and cusses out her family, and I love my mother so much because she truly is one of the strongest people I’ve met (not saying that just because she’s my mom) and I always comfort her and such, but recently I’ve been defending her. My dad always assumes I’m “picking sides” and stops talking to me for months on end. Then he pops into the bedroom I share with my mom, and makes silly faces and says shit like “you’re not still mad at me, are you?” And if you don’t accept this “apology” if I can even call it that lmfao, then he will curse at you again and spit and throw his little fit and continue not to talk for weeks.
Last April, my friends and I decided to take graduation pictures together. We ended up at a park, and my dad came to pick me up late. The park was incredibly large. I hadn’t eaten all day. I was walking in dark clothes, my graduation gown, my hot and uncomfortable shoes, and I was so dehydrated. My phone was overheating while I was walking because the sun was just baking us lol. I asked my dad to come pick me up because I felt like I might faint and there were some sketchy areas of the park and my feet were on fire, but he said there’s a line of cars waiting to get into the park, so I should “just walk faster.” There was literally just three cars going into the park. The three cars took no more than 50 seconds to get into the park. I found him just standing by the car on the street, smoking, lmao. He was upset that I had taken so long to walk across the big ass park. We fought in the car, and I absolutely HATE yelling when arguing but he doesn’t respect or listen when you speak in a calm voice, so I had to resort to yelling. I’ve never yelled at him before. I was screaming the whole ride home and told him how our life is ruined because of him, how we are thousands of dollars in debt because of him for no good reason (my mom too because he opens up credit cards in her name and takes out so many loans, resulting in her going into debt too), how he constantly blames my mom for not being able to study but he has no one to blame but himself, how we live in a shit hole, and I told him he makes me hate my life and I want to kill myself.
He told me I should just go ahead and do it. “So what? Kill yourself. It’d be your fault for doing it, and it doesn’t affect me. I won’t cry over you. It’d be just like the death of a stray dog.”
It really hurt me so much at the time considering the fact that I have depression and extreme anxiety, but we eventually made up. I want to forgive him.
My mom tells me I’ve become short tempered like my dad and that I’ve slowly become a loud mouth, which scares me because I don’t want to be like him. I want to get away. I think I’m so irritable and loud these days because I just have so much pain inside of me that I want to get out. I still have so much on my chest. Just so much pain and hurt. And it always increases when I see him treating my mom so badly. She’s soft spoken, like me, but I’ve recently been defending her “rudely” and telling him to stop talking like that to her. My mom and her side of the family have raised me so well and I love them so much and I would totally be a mess like my father if it wasn’t for them. My dad is so adamant that my mom and I get along with his sister, but every time we talk to her, something bad happens. Whenever we don’t talk to her there is peace and my dad is a completely different person, so it’s almost like she curses us or something LMAO. Idk. Anyways I have no interest in getting to know my dads side of the family because they only call for money, and they have bad tempers and they’re very judgmental people with nothing better to do than to gossip.
Anyways, I’ve had a bad cold this week and my dad was in an ok mood yesterday. However my mom was upset w him and he was trying to make up with her, which resulted in him jokingly cussing at her which really pissed me off. He was talking about how she ruined his life and made him quit studying, and I ended up defending her and yelling at him that he’s the only person responsible for what has happened to him. My dad always takes out loans for his family, but won’t take out loans to continue his education or to better me and my moms quality of life. I mentioned this and I always call my aunt on my dads side simply by her name rather than auntie ______, which set him off. I told him I’ll call her whatever I want because she has no interest in checking up on us simply out of love, but simply to get money. He hit me with those big 5 gallon bottles lmao. Then I locked the door and he put in another hole in the door, amassing to a total of 3 over the years. Admittedly, I did make the situation worse, but I was just so blind with rage yesterday and I don’t know why. I was just feeling so horrible and I’m just so stressed out by school, and I snapped.
Today he caused another big problem, and he cussed at us and called me a whore (when I’ve never dated lmAo) and told me I’ll end up on the streets some day desperate for money. He said other unkind things, and I didn’t speak up bc I don’t have the energy to do it anymore, and because my mom begged me not to argue and cause him to get even angrier.
My mom is currently unemployed, and she doesn’t have the best english. She has worked for years in a certain field, but it’s not enough to live on your own. We want to move out so badly but it just seems impossible. We have no family here, no money, nothing. I have a credit card so i can finally rent an apartment if I have to without worrying ab my moms ruined credit score, but I don’t make enough money to support us both. Idk what I’m doing. I just wish I could disappear lol. Idk how to succeed at college anymore living in this environment. I know no one will read this whole thing because it’s literally just a mess hahaha but I guess it’s just me putting my thoughts out there in fear that I’ll explode internally. I wish I had a normal loving father who fixes the sink and makes bad jokes and spends time with his wife. I wish I had a normal family and I wish my mom was happy. I wish I could fix so much, but I can’t. I just turned eighteen a few weeks ago, and I’ve never felt more useless or hopeless.
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2020.10.11 08:15 theyrepants lonely worms getting bullied

I started my worm bin in June this year and have learned a lot reading this sub. my noods were doing really well for a while, but my bin is really popular with all manners of crawlies. after a really bad mite infestation (both red and white) the worm population seems to have plummeted. after the mites came snails! now I've got the mites and snails under control, but my bin is inundated with wood lice!!! ive managed to recruit plenty of BSF larvae too and am quite happy to host these chubby grubbies. but my wormies are reclusive and increasingly rare...
composting is still happening (still wonderful loamy goodness) but I've grown quite fond of my poop noodles and miss seeing them around. I dream of finding worm eggs and being a grandma. might buy a new box of worms to refresh the poop noodle dating scene but I'm worried they won't last again. how do I keep them happy and in good company and make sure they're getting enough to eat?
FWIW the worms I started with were apparently Malayan blue worms, and I'm in a hot and humid tropical area. because of the mites, I hardly water my bin, but it's always nice and damp at the bottom of the bin where the worms hang out. should I water more? Ive never seen them clumping together and doing that sexy hamburger thing you get with red wrigglers. if I throw in a banana or avocado peel, it gets filled up with mites or woodlice, not worms. the worms always hang out at the sides and bottom of the bin. the worms that I do find seem healthy! shiny happy responsive al dente noodles. but LONELY. I just want them to find love and make babies. I wish they would grow some spine and tell the woodlice to get bent.
tldr: worms getting bullied, everybody stealing all their food! we've had mites, snails, and now woodlice and BSF larvae competing in the bin. how do I ensure a happy balanced ecosystem and keep my worms happy and plentiful?
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